Saturday, December 22, 2007

no one can get in the way of what i feel

poets often use many words
to say a simple thing
but it takes thought and time and rhyme
to make a poem sing

with music and words i'll be playing
for you, i have written a song
to be sure that you know what im saying
i'll translate as i go along

fly me to the moon
and let me play among the stars
wont you let me see what spring
is like on jupiter and mars

in other words, hold my hand
in other words, darling, kiss me

fill my heart with song
and let me sing forevermore
cause you are all i long for
all i worship and adore

in other words, please be true
in other words, i love you

to the moon, the moon
just take me to the moon, yeah



im really proud of my collection (part of it only). sometimes i seriously feel something is really wrong within my head. i always feel damm HAPPY, damm LOVING IT, damm HIGH, damm ENLIGHTENED, damm WANT TO OWN IT SOO MUCH whenever i see cute everything. it just came naturally and instantly, i cant help it! i cant resist that blinding feeling at all. even my mother couldnt stand me whenever i tell her i want to buy those baby toys at Kiddy Palace, lol. but she told me i will grow out of that feeling when i get older, well i guess so.. x)

well on my birthday, it was a great day. thanks to everybody whom i know and those who celebrated with me! i hope you like the joy i shared with you..in every reply i returned lol. really appreciate the joy each of you have given me. :) like a lot of bloggers do (like a tradition), i want to thank:
pootpoot, isaac, huimin, weixiong, weicheng, kaisheng, konghong, ferline, yaungai, gwyneth, roxanne, tuckyong, faith, zhansheng, benson, johnson, flora, ronald, valerie, boonliang, shuhua, lilian, chienchen, jane (同年同月同日生), hunghua, samantha, vincent, camille, carmen, peizi, pipo (dont know who in friendster), weiling (for the very first time!), minqian, ignatius..
and my family, i will always love you all. no matter how much ive struggled before. no matter how much it hurts from your actions and words. i will always respect you. and never want to be like you.

my sister actually bought me this. i dont know how, but she just claimed so. it was such a pleasant surprise. anyway on my birthday, pootpoot and i went to the ZOO in the morning til close. i want to go Underwater World next, can someone please bring me there? i wish to have seahorses, jellyfishes and some cute little marine fishes next time in my own dream house, in a big aquarium..but i doubt that is possible lol. okay about on 181207,

on the way to Zoo. with hello kitty balloon and 3 roses (i love you).

reached Zoo, so happy and excited. but hello kitty balloon was not allowed in, so it was "confiscated". reason: it is too big. SAD

this is an Ice Mountain..and it costed a whole hell of 2.00 SG dollars!

first time i see that someone would react that way if get bitten by a giant tortoise.

i heart you. you heart me.

penguins are cute, i love Happy Feet lol.

i enjoyed the splashing animal show, very very much. :) the penguins and sealions are so smart! but no white baby seals to see.

this big dumb bird wanted to bite pootpoot's arm, really scared the hell out of me.

maplestory: stoned face, funny looking weapon, cute costume, noisy wild boar.

the snowman cake my mother bought. super nice mango cake.

oh yay, spotted many lovely flowers at the Zoo too. these look like temples. x) lazy to post ALL the photos, next time then do so. after Zoo, we took bus back to AMK and had dinner at the cheap japanese restaurant. then the 8 of us went to the arcade to play the basketball game and some others too. later we went home to rest already, quite tired to wake up so early. but before we slept, we played a match of -wtf DotA. they are really damm good at promises (thanks!), but do forgive me for i find -wtf fun to play. ^^

me: "smile!"

me: "okay now be sad.." *pout mouth.

she: "jie jie..jie jie.."
me: LOL!


yester-night pootpoot and i went to watch National Treasure: Book of Secrets. the movie was free of charge, because i was one of the 80 E2max members to go try queue at the E2max counter to get the pair of tickets. aint that cool, and it was free seating. pootpoot was sure damm happy, he kept saying about the movie as it was his favourite. and i got the movie for him, just that easy. :) the movie was indeed exciting and interesting. but i dont seem to have any impression of watching the first sequel. oh earlier that day, i went to rebond and cut my hair. i went to the salon at toa payoh central with the cheapest rate; 99$. the hairdresser/boss was an uncle, and he worked alone because his young workers either had to go back his country or went to other place work (one guy went to pizza hut work, the auntie said maybe there got girls to see even though the salon's pay is higher). he was rather poor thing, as he had many customers, especially aunties. but he just had to work on, and he was rather funny. after he rebonded my hair, he said no need cut. but i said my hair looked kind of boring, so he started snipping rather much of my hair and kept repeating "wont boring already". i think he was damm experienced also. the auntie beside me who was going to get her hair dyed, said my hair has a nice brown. the hairdresser uncle then said my hair isnt dyed, its natural and will never be black. i was surprised, he was damm smart! but i do wish to have black hair, because it will somehow enhance the face.

its always true, that we will never be satisfied with what we have. because we just somehow wont get very much appealed to anything which are too easy to get. when you have black hair, you would want to dye it into rainbow. when you have brown hair, you want it to be some other colour. you have straight hair, you would want it to be all curly and wavey. and when you have curled up hair, you want to have dead straight hair. aint we funny? as a matter of fact, mostly females are that funny. LOL.


you can be sure, that it will only get better. x)

Sunday, December 16, 2007

that may be all i need, in darkness he is all i see

HELLO HELLO! ive been eating macdonald's and kfc for the past two days, because my darling wanted to eat, though i was damm damm afraid of having fever once again. but luckily, ive been drinking lots of water and im still feeling pretty well. :) hope this means that ive recovered fully! then i will be able to start my tibits fetish once again..


that row of Caramel Corn series, oh so tempting.

i have to try these two, i have to. one looks like the chips have lots of cheese on them, and the other has cod roe (whao?) plus CHEESE. both 3$+, not cheap ya!

and on the other hand, i have these!

and the marshmallow with black sesame paste ive been looking for..


other than crazy about cheesey food, im still looking high and low for the kind of casual dress i would love to have. yesterday went to Ripcurl shop and tried some dress.

this was fine, but it was way too low-cut at the cleavage. had to wear bikini i think, meant for as a beach wear.

yesterday darling and i also went to the arcade, and saw the cute angel-winged rabbit again. it was so cute, so we tried to catch it. but it was annoyingly a failure to drop into that freedom hole for me to adopt that cute rabbit. when i see other machines, some really like to eat money. because it was so bloody difficult to get what you aim for in that machine. why Singapore's arcades like to eat money so much? when you think about it, arcades are meant for stress relief or simply to have fun. that dumb machine with toys in it, isnt it SUPPOSE to be meant for players to catch the toy with much excitement and to be proud of themselves when they caught that imported toy? instead, i see Singapore machines want to make players' lifes more difficult and to leave with sometimes anger, disappointment and broke with nothing in hand. when i was in Japan, the staff would notice what i aimed for after afew tries. and then he placed the toy so close to the hole, that i simply used 1 or 2 more tokens to get that cute toy with much happiness and of course gratefulness towards the staff. why want to make life difficult when you can bring smiles to many faces? why so stingy? dont arcades earn a lot? argh.

nevertheless, it was fine. because money can be earned back. sometimes wish we dont get tempted so easily. next time i will earn so much, i could go Japan as when i like and buy the toys to show off at the arcade. x)



i know my lublubx's wishlist! i wish to have longer and visible lashes LOL. anyway my future aim would be to have my own house and i could design its interior myself.

have my own wonderland. have some cute dwarf rabbits, maybe?

have my own son. :) little boyboys are cute. the rabbit looks like its crying because i sayang the cat, lol cute.

BUBBLY
ive been awake for a while now
you got me feeling like a child now
cause every time i see your bubbly face
i get the tinglies in a silly place

it starts in my toes
and i crinkle my nose
wherever it goes
i always know
that you make me smile
please stay for a while now
just take your time
wherever you go


the rain is falling on my window pane
but we are hiding in a safer place
under covers staying dry and warm
you give me feelings that i adore

it starts in my toes
and i crinkle my nose
wherever it goes
i always know
that you make me smile
please stay for a while now
just take your time
wherever you go


what am i going to say
when you make me feel this way
i just mmmmm

and it starts in my toes
makes me crinkle my nose
wherever it goes
i always know
that you make me smile
please stay for a while now
just take your time
wherever you go


ive been asleep for a while now
you tuck me in just like a child now
cause every time you hold me in your arms
im comfortable enough to feel your warmth

and it starts in my soul
and i lose all control
when you kiss my nose
the feeling shows
cause you make me smile baby
just take your time now
holding me tight

wherever you go
i always know
cause you make me smile
even just for a while

Monday, December 10, 2007

theres got to be something for my soul somewhere

last friday, i did not meet weiling in the end. she was busy with her work. it was so funny, she thursday asked me to meet on friday. thursday night she then told me cannot meet already, friday morning told me can meet again. then friday afternoon say cannot, and for real. so i went out with my friends for dinner and all instead. travelling in a family car was cool, the traffic jam dragged time but chatting non stop made time go faster. but before that, i had the most unforgettable experience in my life and in school. it was surprising, yet stressful at the same time. i seriously could never expect such matter would happen, and i dont wish to disappoint anyone. but ive made a promise: between you and me. :)



anyway today was the first and last test paper for my whole semester. i am going to graduate early, unless something terrible happen. :x so currently its holiday until 3rd of january (thursday) then school reopens for me. all thanks to my no tuesdays and wednesdays timetable. but i think i may have to go back school to do my projects, i need Pro Engineer to do most of my projects. unless someone has Pro Engineer program to lend me, please. nevertheless im going to rent several movies to watch! :)



i had fever during the weekends, and a terrible sore throat. cannot swallow anything, even my own saliver is a torture. currently im recovering, still feeling a little weak though. watched the Golden Compass still, with leslie, at bugis on saturday. it was exciting, and i like fantasy movies very much. surely there will be a sequel because it didnt have an ending. looking forward to it. :)



i asked my sister to ask my mother to buy these really cute Powerpuff Girls sticker books, such a cunning plan. i wanted to get all 4 books (summer, winter, autumn, spring) but she didnt allow. so i said sister and i take one each then. x) can you guess which one is mine? of course the one with dandelion and a rabbit. next time i want to buy Powerpuff Girls story book, im really attracted to some at Popular!



the book has stickers which could be removable (as said on the book, but not that easy to remove) so can change the "story" of the scene. they are so adorable.



除了想你 除了爱你
我什么 什么都愿意

Wednesday, December 05, 2007

you can still touch my love, its free


cookie monster said:
now what starts with the letter "c"?
"cookie" starts with "c"!
lets think of other things that starts with "c".
uh..uh.. who cares about the other things?!

"c" is for cookie, thats good enough for me.
"c" is for cookie, thats good enough for me.
"c" is for cookie, thats good enough for me.
oh! cookie, cookie, cookie starts with "c"!

hey, you know what?
a round cookie with one bite out of it looks like a "c".
a round donut with one bite out of it also looks like a "c",
but it is not as good as a cookie
oh, and the moon sometimes looks like a "c"
but you can't eat that
so..

"c" is for cookie, thats good enough for me.
"c" is for cookie, thats good enough for me.
"c" is for cookie, thats good enough for me.
oh! cookie, cookie, cookie starts with "c"!
cookie, cookie, cookie starts with "c"!
cookie, cookie, cookie starts with "c"!

rawr yum yum yum.


i prefer cheese though, it also starts with "c"!

princesss doesnt start with "c" but it has a "c" in the middle.

anyway for the past few weeks, i have been spending most of my time with weiling. meeting up with her at town almost everyday after school was a routine. now never already, maybe because she got back with alvin again. im not totally sure, just that if she suddenly doesnt look for me anymore, i guess it should be like that.

there was this particular day, when i met up with her and a friend of hers. that guy was near 30, and he had spent 10 years in hospital due to a car accident. in a matter of fact, he looked and acted childish (retarded is too harsh). i was rather hungry for a dinner, and we walked from orchard to dhoby ghaut. initially i suggested a japanese place where its cheap. but the Giraffe restaurant opposite Plaza Singapura attracted that henry guy.

he said to take a look at that restaurant because it was pretty and to "learn how they entreprise". so we gave in and crossed over. in the end, he was damm enthusiastic. he was looking at the menus, asking questions and then, want to have a seat already. weiling and i was rather shock and hopeless that we had to follow in. their cheapest food costs more than 10$, even Swensens sounds better. he kept saying the place very good because the environment there was very pretty. right after we chose our coursemeal, he demanded for the bill. !! he insisted that the waitor calculate on the spot, and asked why the waitor only remembered the food name but not the prices. !!!! it was rather embarrassing actually, and he kept waving his two 50$ notes. so he got his bill, as he prefers to pay before eating. the 3 of us ate 52$+ only, while a girl he dated before ate with him 70$+. surely, that girl just wants to take advantage of him. his favourite phrase of the day was "worth it", everything was worth it to him due to the pleasant environment. my meal was a bad experience though, the beef patty was so tough! i totally dislike tough beef, i dont even mind if its more raw. but their pasta was okay.

lol i let her sit higher, so she wouldnt be blocked by the candle.

inside the restaurant. we dined on the second floor, where its in the open. after dinner, we decided to go Heeren for neoprints because that guy loves to take pictures also. but as we were walking there, he looked damm tired. really like kid mann. when we ran across the road due to the traffic timer, he dashed damm damm fast. really like can be number 1 in sprints, but it was hilarious. he dashed two times across the road, and once got a teenager said to his friends "ehh that guy very funny". x) so we went to Heeren and wanted to have a drink first. he treated us the 1.50$ blackcurrant drink, and he kept saying it was worth it because it was delicious. and after we took neoprint (also he treated), he kept repeating "very pretty", "japan very smart" and "very worth it". weiling and i took another round of neoprints also, want to scan them so much! after that we went down, and there was Maroon 5's Makes Me Wonder being broadcasted. that henry guy actually danced around as if the whole corridor was his stage. that guy was really unexpected, full of surprises and laughters to others (but to laugh at). :/ anyway we walked back to dhoby ghaut and met with puayeng. alighted with puayeng at braddell and walked with her home. after that weiling told me that she went hospital. wanted to visit her, but when i was free, she was discharged already. i even prepared all the SHE magazines for her, but it was too bad. my mother told me "when you like somebody, you will do anything for her/him". x) very true indeed.

nevertheless, i still have 笨笨 the lo so.

he is my lublubx always.

he is my POOT POOT, everytime POOT. ee~


the CANDY i will always love and hold. *still not opened yet. ^^

WISHLIST:
-white, strapped beach-type dress (!!)
-MCR concert tickets (but nobody to go with)
-Matchbox Twenty, The Click Five, Kelly Clarkson CD (?!)
-Christina Aguilera, MayDay concert DVD (!!)
-straight hair (!!)
-my legs to be slimmer and no tummy (!!)
-all the favourite Disney's cartoons (when i have my own house)

at night
such coincidental that i blogged about her and then she contacted me in the evening. she smsed me and then called me for a chat. we will be going out again, this friday. :) she said she wont be going overseas anymore, due to friends, boyfriend, family and work. dont know why i didnt have much to say about that, even she asked why i so weird, like nothing to say. well when she said she was going overseas study, i said good for her. and then when she said she is not going, i also said good for her. as long she is happy, ya? i just didnt have much to say. :/ i also find it weird though. nevertheless, its really good. i still want to burn my SHE concert dvd for her. maybe by christmas, as a christmas gift, not a farewell gift anymore. but whats with this confused feeling?

i want you to know, you make me happy. i want you to know, you make me sad. i want you to know, you make me happy. you were the best thing that i ever had.