every wish, every candle, every coin in the fountain was all about you

friday, saturday and today (sunday), when we can have the company of each other..ENDS. but we still have next week, and the following, and the following and so on. :) and we are under the same sky!..if you look up into the sky, we are never that far away.

friday 25/7: dinner at white sands' hongkong cafe, the curry ramen plus cereal prawn balls plus free (dont know why free) fried wanton killed me. the bus journey from toa payoh to pasir ris also really killed me, couldnt stop sneezing upon entering white sands. almost had a cold, maybe thats why couldnt eat so much. or maybe because 2 weeks no buta to feed me fat fat, my stomach grew smaller. x) wanted to get donuts as usual, BUT..instead..heard a really BAD BAD news: YUMMY donut which was the ONLY place i know selling peppermint donuts, has been pwned by Donut Empire. OH, THE HORROR! sad. so after dinner took the mrt to this tortoise's place, and saw this cute way of seperating the seats (but people still sit what!).

watched The Perfect Cut's final episode before he drove me home. really hope i could win those giveaways. i participated the contest since the first day, how unlucky can i be? :/ oh, missed the night festival..konghong bo jio, HEE. but never mind, didnt know the festival was on this day.

saturday 26/7: i tried putting on fake eyelashes. OH MAN, i really put my hands down on those who put their fake eyelashes so easily. putting them on really killed me, i was totally clueless! dont know how people put until not so visible, and so close to the ends of my real lashes.

still not there yet, the end still visibly out of place. really must practice many many times until i can get the hang out of putting on fake eyelashes. i did my best for that day already, after about 1 hour or so.

i didnt put on any makeup except the eyelashes. no time and i was only trying on the fake eyelashes. but its still not so bad, just with the eyelashes. maybe i do have the potential (everybody also say so what). ;x anyway we went cineleisure's arcade before catching a movie. now the arcade uses lousy 2$ paper cards, plus the para para machine so expensive 1$..use the paper card slash two times finish already. buta was really sweet to let me play 2 games. :* we then caught Wedding Daze and it was hilarious and very nice! why cant two strangers get married? the craziness will be the fun of it. but in real life maybe wont so coincidentally meet a stranger who will crazy along with you, and in good heart. after movies, we went for PEPPER LUNCH yeah! dont know why whenever i eat unagi (eel), i will fall in love with its taste, texture, and especially its smell. ITS TOTALLY CRAZY! but i do admit, i love meat which has their kind of smell. we then walked around orchard before heading home. oh buta is totally cute, i never knew he will mind me "zhao geng". xD

this dress is cute, plus i love retro. but ugly on me, made me look fat. LOL.









buta loves my fake purple lashes and my real big eyes.

now they are NOT SO BIG ALREADY! HE HE HA HE HO!
i read from faith's blog that fats like to accumilate under the eyes. means the only way to get rid of my natural eye bags is..through PLASTIC SURGERY. yikes! really hate them. you see, naturally i have eye bags. then if i never get enough of sleep, the eye bags will also naturally be puffier and worse. RAHH!!

today 27/7: gave going zoo with konghong's tour group a miss. because of financially tight and my parents (especially father) wont allow me bring her out since he is home and i went zoo just last year. bird park i will go! :D oh, just yesterday i found a 50$ note in my wallet, i still dont know who sneaked it in. anyway buta came to fetch me before going out for dinner with his family. he couldnt bluff me about him taking the mrt, because of his dressing plus slippers! HEE.

ee wear the same shirt and pants which were worn before on friday. HAHAHA.



went to his house first and waited for him to pack up and prepare to go Tekong, yet again. before he went to fall in at pasir ris, we had zhi char at some restaurant. really very nice, and i really appreciated the dinner. his father is really very kind, brought us out for dinner and still sent me home. when i wanted to leave and take bus, he told me not to worry about it. was really confused, i didnt know if i shouldnt be rude or just go ahead and not to trouble them. buta also didnt want me to take bus either, too long of a journey. :/ oh, i got a shock when his father picked the first piece of fish and it was for me. after that he didnt pick any subsequence food for me anymore, maybe he saw my shocked expression. how embarrassing!

today i finally wore the earrings he first bought for me, i never really notice they are really lovely on my ears. LOL. maybe because they are new and shiny and has a unique chained star design. woots, im having a headache now. he said because im missing him. what a buta! BUT perhaps, perhaps, perhaps luhh.. HEE.

every time our eyes meet
this feeling inside me
is almost more than I can take
baby when you touch me
i can feel how much you love me
and it just blows me away
ive never been this close to anyone or anything
i can hear your thoughts
i can see your dreams

i dont know how you do what you do
im so in love with you
it just keeps getting better
i wanna spend the rest of my life
with you by my side
forever and ever
every little thing that you do
baby im amazed by you

the smell of your skin
the taste of your kiss
the way you whisper in the dark
your hair all around me
baby you surround me
you touch every place in my heart
oh it feels like the first time every time
i wanna spend the whole night in your eyes

not so amazed face. x)
BYE BYE LOVE.
see you in 4.5 days!
6( <(❤(0o)❤)> ♡♥♡ _/(❤w❤)\_ )o

there is nothing in this world that could ever do what the touch of your hand can do

YEAH! TOMORROW CAN FINALLY SEE MY SWEET BUTA!! YEAH!!!

this week i have been a very good girl, didnt go out. no dates, no outings, no nothing. just me and my television. standard MUST WATCH will be 9pm on channel 8 and 10pm on channel u. also rented vcds Who Slept With Her? and Sky Of Love (both super nice to watch. both also got love making scene -.-). but during the rest of the day, i do feel very BORED!..even my sister feels the boredom. or is it that my room got aura? x) well dont mind my bo liao-ness, im rather influenced by cuties all around.

my papa gave me a hamtaro hairclip. he has a habit of picking things up.



i caught her lying facedown after reading her Playhouse Disney magazine, really very cute and funny. anyway i really need to get a job, even its boring admin i also wont mind already. my money is running out, heard my papa's money is getting low also due to poor business. :( all i could do now is to spend less and use less electricity and water.

last week i did go out..

wednesday 16/7: out with weiling to see doctor then at night go movies with thomas. watched ITS A BOY GIRL THING, wasnt as stupid as i thought all body-changing movies will be. i wouldnt mind watching that movie again and again, really very nice and sweet and funny and meaningful. other than sexual humor and ghostly horror, i also enjoy watching romantic comedy. oh, i may need to reconsider watching movies with thomas next time. during funny scenes, i thought he didnt laugh because he found them not funny. but actually he laughed after everybody stopped laughing (?!)..it was so embarrassing can! somemore he laughed loudly and also gave some comments while laughing. -.- the horror.

may be i sua gu, this cigarette/card holder very cute. cant stop playing with it.



can see, but cannot be mine.

friday 18/7: after dinner at home, i met up with thomas then headed to novena to walk walk and buy things. headed back to toa payoh for my black sesame paste before going home. we agreed that i go home watch The Perfect Cut at 10pm. but weiling then called that she didnt have dinner due to her boyfriend's poor time planning, and asked me to accompany her. she said her area has no food. so as i wanted to watch television, i then thought that i buy the food for her then travel to her house watch. her mother was very kind, kept offering me durian puffs to eat. hmm sometimes i feel that what people tell me is true (since primary school). i can always be there for people when they need me, but ever will they be there for me when i need them? maybe i too free or too kind, but i also never tell anybody i need them. i always keep quiet, because i really dont know who i can turn to actually. sometimes i dont even know what i doing, and why i do so much for people. at the end, i never gain anything but probably being stupid.

saturday 19/7: lent my handphone charger to thomas before going to amk hub to catch THE DARK KNIGHT. almost didnt get to catch fireworks, as everywhere is selling fast or sold out. everybody is really dead crazy serious about that movie! luckily we still got the first-row, by-the-wall, nobody-wants, two seats. it was my first time watching a batman movie, and all i can say is that its very very nice! :) love the joker, love the batman, love the 1 minute of edison (such a handsome cutie), love the plot, love the story, love everything about it..even though its almost 3 hours of i-need-to-pee. funnily weiling watched before already, and she bluffed me so i get to watch with her. though its not really necessary because i can dont watch any batman movie, its still very sweet of her. so after that we went to watch fireworks at marina square. but this week they having a break, following week then got fireworks again. it was raining, but the fireworks display was still on. too bad we had to find shelter, and as the place will be crowded with people without umbrella, i only get to see pulm trees..with the fireworks being blocked. swee arr!

not many people know there will still be fireworks after the pledge and national anthem. yes, 2 more short displays after the chain of fireworks.

after the fireworks, i had long john silver's cheesy shrimps wrap. AWESOME! i had my dinner first because weiling didnt want to eat long john silver, and also while waiting for soonseng. after that soonseng and weiling had their dinner at food court, while i chat with my buta. :) played the arcade as usual, and owned the para para machine. weiling said some angmoh took photo of me..dont know who so evil took my backside, sure an ugly pose.

sunday 20/7: morning went to collect my handphone charger, and then met up with konghong and his 6 other friends to science centre! had a great fun time at the science centre. only the omix theatre's dinosaur show bored me, plus the screen is too BIG, thus difficult to watch. initially i thought it will be very awkward for me to join in konghong's group excursion as i dont know any of his friends. luckily it was really enjoyable, his friends all very friendly plus extremely funny and comical. hope to get all the other photos from their cameras.







rocker robot rocking his head up and down.









at the end of the day, everybody really became zombies and headed home. i lasted until about 11pm then i really got K.O-ed LOL.

time killing quiz again:
#1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
angry and sad, but i could only say bye bye.

#2. If you can have a dream come true, what would it be?
world peace.

#3. If you could be at one place right now, where would it be?
anywhere with him around. :D

#4. Are you confused as to what lies ahead of you?
i definitely am!

#5. What's your ideal lover like?
honest, sweet, dotes me, supportive, brings me go gai gai, never get sick of him.

#6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
being loved should be more blessed..unless by some psycho.

#7. How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
dont wait, just let it be.

#8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
dont care. being friends still has benefits.

#9. Is there anything that has made you unhappy these days?
too bored and lifeless, need to find a job. and no more POPPYCOCK to eat. :(

#10. What do you want most in life?
to live meaningfully.

#11. What do you think is the worse situation in love?
in a relationship with someone you dont love or the person dont love you.

#12. How do you see yourself in ten years time?
working. married?

#13. Who is the current most important person to you?
family, friends and everybody else.

#14. What type of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
faith: cute and caring girl!

#15. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?
single and rich.

#16. If you could have any animal for a pet, what would it be?
sunbear or dwarf rabbit or puppy or lizard or spider (not animal?).

#17. What is one of those things which you would prefer not to do?
not doing anything at all.

#18. What kind of person do you think you are?
lousy person. sob sob sob.

#19. What do you define as a bad day?
being very sweaty without my consent, being left out and nobody to turn to.

#20. If you were to die tomorrow, what would you do today?
tell everybody "i need you all along, even if i dont say. because your smile is precious to everybody, including me. live on and SMILE. take care, bye."


ANGEL CLAY: world's lightest clay, like styrofoam. need to inject colours using dyes and do some kneading. very good clay, just need a little of water and glue. its not messy and easy to use. wee~
made the sunflowers pot for my sweetest. :) and butterfly for my sister.

my sister claimed she made footballs, and i created a snowman. LOL.

oh, check out mini grapes.

:) i have that baby toy because rabbits are my love.
_/(❤w❤)\_ )o

i also want a HIRO from Sky Of Love:
he is like a river, washing away every obstacle and always moving forward. (and gives gentle pain. ^^")
he wants to be the sky, so he can see and find her wherever she is, and protects her from bullies.
he is all about her. <33333333

you can make my life worthwhile, and i can make you start to smile

if anybody is interested in scuba diving, let me know. i can introduce to you..NAUI SCUBA DIVER COURSE (OPCON PTE LTD). i know of someone there, thanks.

my sister has got fever since the day before yesterday. so she has not been going school since yesterday, and yesterday my mama and i brought her to the thomson medical centre. as usual, she is still as cheerful and active, so it isnt very serious. just will cough, not much appetite and MAY vomit. :/ i do find myself getting sick too. i kept sneezing (many times at a go) recently and my throat seems a little uncomfortable. could be that im getting buta's sickness since he said his flu is getting better. anyway i am doing nothing at this moment, i dont mind that. as long he book out MUST bring me go out eat and play! ;D be with him will fat, stay at home also will fat. sleep and watch television until fat, HAHAHA.

i dont mind if you havent/couldnt do your part as my boyfriend. but you do have other responsibilities whether you like it or not (blame on your birdie then). being independant and understanding, i will make myself :D by all means..and as long you got call/text me! you know, i am very happy that i still get to see your sms every morning. HEE. and every night before you go to bed. miss you beri muchie, sweets.


play time: posing with all my lovable cute plushes!


*YEAH~ brad pitt and angelina jolie has 龙凤胎/twins added to their family. 8 children in total! SO CUTEE. :D

saturday 12/7
headed to esplanade's MAKANSUTRA GLUTTONS BAY to have dinner with weiling. i had fried oyster omelette while she had hokkien mee. we were pretty surprised with the 小 because the portions were quite big. coincidentially, there was a NDP preview that day and we got to enjoy some of the acts. initially we didnt know where to go and had been thinking for almost a week, but my food craving landed us at a place where we could enjoy throughout the night. :) first time i saw so many parachuters in the sky. i counted there were like 14, or maybe more.

usually there are only 4-5 parachuters if im not wrong. but this year so special? and everybody will have to HEY..YA until mad. :D we went to marina square's arcade, and it was pretty crowded. met crazy people who owned the para para machine with their freestyle hard dances. 1 dancer actually inserted 5 tokens at one go (shes selfish, kiasu, too much, hiao, in a matter of fact), then another girl had 2, and another had 1, and i was the pathetic 9th credit. really waited damm long, but was surprised by the way they played freestyle HARD. they played like no kick, damm pro can. they can do pattern pattern with their hands like xiao long nu, play sudden or invisible mode, DOTS why do you even memorise freestyle steps? its FREESTYLE isnt it? i couldnt master many difficult and messy songs, and i am always afraid that i may fail. i still prefer dancing in para para mode, more relax, cute, fun and enjoyable for me. :) but always attract attentions, oops. as marina square offer the cheapest para para game (50cents for 5 games), we stayed by the machine until 11pm. by the time i played, nobody snatched with us already anyway.

that night we caught fireworks too..weiling's favourite! she loves them, she said she will marry whoever who has fireworks. HEHEHE. even the pastor from RN said to attract weiling go church, have to put fireworks. since shes so hyped up with fireworks. xD well i love 流星雨 and attracted to the moon. it was so bright!











oops, its the inside of the rose. also look like fireworks what! sorry i cannot take care of flowers. and im cruel. but i do love them, rooted on the ground untouched.

introducing..BIG FOOD.

BIG fish breakfast.

BIG cherry tomato.

Premenstrual syndrome, also called PMS, is a term used to describe a group of physical, mental, and behavioral symptoms. These symptoms occur in the 2 weeks before a menstruating woman has her period.

PMS occurs during the last 2 weeks of a woman's menstrual cycle. This phase starts with the release of an egg from the ovary. It ends when the woman starts her period. The exact cause of PMS is unknown, but researchers have proposed the following causes:

-changes in kidney hormone levels, which cause water retention and weight gain
-deficiencies of minerals, such as calcium
-deficiencies of vitamins A, B6, and E
-dietary changes, such as high levels of sodium and simple sugars
-higher levels of estrogen, a female hormone
-higher levels of prostaglandins, which produce inflammation
-lower levels of endorphins, which are a part of the nervous system that produce what is called a high feeling
-lower levels of progesterone, a female hormone
-lower levels of serotonin, a hormone that influences mood

PMS is reported in 85% of women who menstruate. However, only 5% to 10% of menstruating women are severely impaired by PMS. No one knows what makes PMS so severe in some women and mild in others.

honestly, i hardly experience PMS.

i now believe that menses will also cause the nipples to sore. i used to thought they hurt because i sleep on my tummy or sides. LOL silly me. and the breasts do swell and become bigger. :/ but blood and sour thighs and abdominal pain still has yet to come..late already. because of sickness or stress or something else? i do am clueless. but the pimples, are getting out of hand lot. sobsob.

say have not come, menses really came. thanks to macdonald's milo too. because, usually tummy aches also means menses coming. even wifey also everytime say menses come already will keep want to poot poot LOL. not all the time for me.

my hair is that messy and i am that unglam at home, full of clips. x) hot = hair oily WHAT. i need..movies and food and my love (so i can play dress up/doll up).

you are the light in my deepest darkest hour

i find that travelling to Tekong is rather troublesome. need to take shutter bus from pasir ris interchange to ferry terminal then take ferry to Tekong. well i did not cry like what weiling said, because she did during her time. x) the tour around BMTC was not something new, as i went on the tour before during poly time. just that this time i went on the tour with shawn's father, mother and grandmother. it was awkward sometimes because they usually speak in hokkien (i dont understand dialect), but his father is really friendly. oh the chicken drumstick in the last meal before going off was really NICE! :D the wonderful view of an unlimited open blue sky was not something i get to see everyday (due to high rise buildings and something to do with the environment/water i think).











under the same sky, we are never that far away..

after the tour, we headed to White Sands first before shawn's father sends me home. they had bubble teas while i HAVE to buy donuts, whenever im there. because thats the only place i found PEPPERMINT donuts, and its really gooood! i bought 6 donuts because its more worth at 6.50$ and my mama said i should have bought more of peppermint since im there. true indeed.

that heart shaped strawberry was specially for my sis, and she loved it. xD recently she said something really cute. whenever i am preparing to change to go out, she will always ask me where im going. one time when i told her im going out, she said why everytime go out, dont go out lah. HAHAHA. next time shall bring her go zoo, i think its damm fun.

i was still smiling away looking at him, its just so cute. like seeing your kid all grown up, not much of a "dont bear" because its just another phase of his life. maybe after a period of time of "missing" then cry. :/

P.S, his daddy said "shawn is like the shortest hor?" LOL. too bad he didnt get his daddy's height nor his daddy's perfect double eyelids. rahh! x) nobody in my family got my mama's perfect double eyelid either, how sad. hope he eats the army food and grow taller like the sergeant said himself personally, and become fitter. HEHEHE. oh can buy 4d, he is in company 3, platoon 3, index number 3 (his daddy said) and we exactly 3 months together then he got enlisted.

sigh, going to become little miss LONELY.

nobody to talk to when i wake up until 10.30pm, nobody to go out with for buffets or walks or dinners or movies, nobody to be disturbed of..oh well! still have to make full use of time, let everyday be meaningful and progressive.