i just want to hold you close, feel your heart so close to mine

morning had breakfast cum lunch with buta. today we only spent such a short moment together..miss him already! feel like sleeping also, so tired. :D shall dream of him in our paradise.

a few months ago, i came across a website and i submitted two funny photos for their "make a face" contest. i didnt read their terms and condition, i just saw that everybody had more than 1 submission so i submitted 2 for fun. in the end, both of my photos won BUT only 1 prize for each winner. so i felt quite sorry that there is 1 less winner for the contest. :/
Most Precious

Most Ecstatic

the prize was 1 year supply of Heaven & Earth drinks, 15 cartons each of jasmine green tea, osmanthus and chrysanthemum (360 cans altogether). aint that great? apparently ive forgotten about it, so quite surprised when i won something out of a sudden.

LOL true, im biased that i only wear makeup when dating, for interviews and work if needed.

watched a few movies this week, like 12 Lotus and Cyborg She. 12 Lotus wasnt as nice as 881, its damm sadistic and somehow lame. Cyborg She isnt bad, but the violent scene was damm scary. imagine hair can cut flesh like penknives, yucks. the ending though, was very DOTS. i want to bring my sister to watch Wall-E and maybe bring her to the Lantern Fantasy at Chinese Garden. this year Hello Kitty and friends will be racing go karts, how cute. but only children get free Hello Kitty lanterns, rahh!

saturday 23/8: met up sweets to have Billy Bombers! Death Race (not that bloody, enjoyable)! fireworks display by korea! Popeyes Chicken..oh love the mashed potato!





BOO!



we had so many drinks. soup, lemon tea, milkshake and water (iced and warm).

he is such a cutie..even when drinking soup. :D










sunday 24/8: sweets got to book in late, so we had dinner with his parents at E!Hub Hong Kong Street. its somehow better than Hong Kong Cafe, and i think cheaper also. we shall go again someday, hopefully there is a more centralised outlet. :D



i still dont like it when his father sends me home, especially after a meal because on him also. its totally weird. dont want to go send buta off anymore. no more no more!

friday 29/8: this was one of the most easy days during work, no difficult calls. only thing was i had to run out to buy stuffs for my supervisor, and of course do sai gang until sweat.

ate breakfast with my sister. :D

doing sai gang is great actually. because time goes by faster and nobody disturbs me. at 6pm my supervisor asked the rest if they need me to stay back and help on anything. luckily they said bye to me, i was so afraid of OT, i want to see my sweetest asap! sweetest and i had Shodoku pasta, and i was quite sorry that the wasu sauce didnt suit me due to its garlic (eww!) and spicyness. they were kind enough to change the pasta to cream sauce, but i didnt expect them to change everything including the salmon and salmon roes. totally wasteful, sad. after that we caught a movie, Forgetting Sarah Marshall. its one of the most hilarious sexual comedy ever! better still that the movie is long, almost 2 hours of laughter. the Inside You song is really freaking unexpected, the melody is lovely but the lyrics is a total killer. i totally enjoy "snacks" comedies..why cannot? :p

scary figure.

scary poster.

i need to cover my fat face.

i told him i want to make his face fatter so i can look thinner.

kind of dislike my goofy teeth. but he said its unique. anyway i love goofy.

his face in front so will look fatter than mine.

yeah happy. *dont care him. xD







too bad the watch magazine cannot give him, have to return it.


saturday 30/8: i bought this belt for this dress, but in the end like quite ugly. lol wasted my money, this dress isnt that nice anymore. dont know how to wear, look like sleeping gown or that im pregnant. i dislike pockets on dress, only like its buttons. so much for impulse buy.



my new (half) lash, i find it quite expensive..but i love the stars. the jewels are quite big and glittery which may kill eyes (like naughty buta's, since he kept complaining about eyes pain), but heck, i love the stars. HEE. anyway sweetest and i went to Dynasty KTV for 1.5 hour of singing session due to the rain (and my makeup went wrong, shh). next time we sing 3-4 hours oki! :D yes i want to be a cheese, because i love cheese so much that i dont mind eating myself either.





after KTV we headed to Bugis for shopping and dinner. tried the stingray tomato aglio at Pasta Mania, and it was spicy but acceptable, and not much stingray meat. he laughed that the spicyness made my lips swell (x2), didnt know will like that. should have seen my lips myself. anyway i feel like eating a whole stingray, i like to eat its bones. x) we tried the crepe too, very nice but quite expensive. blame on the yummy chestnut paste! i was damm angry with the new neoprint machine. the time elapsed so fast that we only managed to choose 3 photos, but the machine didnt auto choose another 3. where got such machine, ate my 3 other photos. and the timing for decorating was 120 seconds and then suddenly fell to 5, 4, 3, 2, 1. WHAT A CHEAT! freaking mad with the dumb machine, even though it has great backgrounds and all.





my gloomy bear has breasts. finally he has gotten himself a new slingbag. his old one was really very torned and tattered but he still brought it around. my new 10$ bag is quite lousy, its pocket has torned and i nearly thought i lost my handphone but actually it has fallen into a "secret compartment". i still dont know if i should get a new one, everybody wants me to get a better one. my shoe on this day also grew a mouth, my poor favourite bronze shoe. hope can seal its mouth with super glue. i want to wear the same colour shoe as my sweetest..please dont die on me. :)



are you lonesome tonight,
do you miss me tonight?
are you sorry we drifted apart?
does your memory stray to a brighter sunny day
when i kissed you and called you sweetheart?
do the chairs in your parlor seem empty and bare?
do you gaze at your doorstep and picture me there?
is your heart filled with pain, shall i come back again?
tell me dear, are you lonesome tonight?
-elvis presley ☜♥☞

i am. even though its not night yet. i already am.

i could spend my life in this sweet surrender, i could stay lost in this moment forever

working: temporary assignment as a 5-day receptionist for a film company.

lunch break: sucky to be alone at orchard, dont know go where eat what. cineleisure and emerald food courts closed. dont wish to eat at crowded place. best is to grab something and walk around.

interview(s): still waiting for answer after 2nd interview at B company. and going for interview at another company this coming wednesday. if anybody happen to know how exactly i can travel to 54 serangoon north ave 4 (cyberhub north), near yio chu kang also i think. please let me know, thanks a lot.


i do wish spending time with buta never ends. but, even the sweetest weekends are coming to an end. and we will be stuck at where we have to be..sigh. me, back in that (STRESSFUL and making me feel STUPID) english perfectionism office once again. the job was a sudden last minute assignment. since i had nothing better to do, after a call, the next day can go for work already. said to last for 1-2 weeks but dont know how long exactly. only love it for its freedom; can wear anything casual, got free drinks..and its at somerset. but there is always an army of insurance surveyors camping at the entrance of the mrt, need siam them. funnily, the company didnt have a receptionist or office assistant for a month already. they are still looking for one, but why hire and sort of train a temporary while looking for a full timer? its really weird.

i want to blog, but im so so tired now. soon then.
nitey.

whenever i breath, you are on my mind every day and night

I THINK I COK-ED UP MY O LEVEL ENGLISH ORAL (TODAY AT CHIJ)!! I FEEL SO FREAKING RETARDED. I WAS RESTLESS BEFORE THE EXAM BUT AFTER THAT I AM TOTALLY AWAKE BY THE NIGHTMARE IVE BEEN THROUGH. I SEE THE INDIAN TEACHER SITTING RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME, HER FACE WAS SO FREAKING STRAIGHT AND DAMM SERIOUS, NO LAUGH OR A SMILE OR SMALL TALKS AT ALL CAN, SHE ONLY ASKED QUESTIONS FROM THE BLOODY PAPER. THE OTHER TEACHER AT LEAST GOT NOD HER HEAD AND SMILE. I WAS ALRIGHT DURING THE 10-MINUTES PREPARATION. BUT ONCE I WENT IN, PASSAGE I CANNOT READ PROPERLY (MAYBE TOO FAST), CONVERSATION I TALKED NONSENSE. I DIDNT EVEN KNOW THE EXAMINATION ROOM HAS NOBODY, AND I WAITED OUTSIDE WHILE THEY WAITED INSIDE POINTLESSLY, SO EMBARRASSING. WORST OF ALL AT THE END, I TOLD HER SCIENCE ISNT VVVVV IMPORTANT BEFORE I WAS DISMISSED. WHAT THE HELL? I MUST BE OUT OF MY MIND! I REALLY MUST PREPARE AND DO WELL FOR THE WRITTEN PAPERS MANN, CANNOT ALL-FUN ANYMORE. TWO MONTHS FOR ME TO PREPARE, AND I SHALL COMBAT. RAHH!

just now my mama lost my sister at Toa Payoh Central, outside the NTUC beside the bus interchange. we really really couldnt find my sister, even had to call down my papa from working and my brother from his NCC. luckily i approached the security guard at the bus interchange, who then guided me to the HDB security officer because they did find a little PAP school girl. funnily, HDB and bus interchange is two different areas. so the bus interchange security guard cannot take in my sister as she was found at the HDB area, and so she was handed to the HDB security officer. the security officer guided me to their office where my sister was finally found. she was funny enough to say mummy go home already and she told me that she walked to the bus interchange and later she walked towards Subway there where she was then LOST. but she had a good time at the office watching Barney, eating biscuits, drinking cold water and even recieved a toy watch. had a mini family reunion at the bus interchange, and then we all headed home. and we lived happily ever after, the end.



tonight and tomorrow has got fireworks display, i want to see. hope later after dinner thomas willing to go watch Marina Square, anyway we so free. tonight display is from france while tomorrow is from korea. should be very nice! :D HAPPY BIRTHDAY HAZEL, YOU ENJOY ENJOY INSIDE WATCH SHOW! [updated: Pariss gave wrong information, what 9-9.15pm has fireworks display. dots, wait until 9.20+pm then start to have fireworks. damm sweaty and got biten by mosquitoes and legs sour and impatient can. cannot see ALL the fireworks, those inside the floating stadium..ENVY ENVY* tomorrow shall catch with naughty buta.]

wednesday 20/8: after sending weiling home, i took the mrt back to Toa Payoh and walked home from there. i think from around Central, there was a guy holding his bike helmet who walked the same route as me. he walked behind until my house there, where he headed towards the multi storey carpark. i missed the previous lift which an uncle and auntie had went up. well, i dont like to run so i seldom chase for anything. i could see that guy across the road while waiting for the lift, and he was near the multi storey carpark. soon i entered the lift and pressed my storey number. when i was about to close the lift, the guy suddenly appear right in front of me. i had NO IDEA how he got into the lift so quickly, i was DAMM SHOCKED can! i didnt care so much even though he didnt press any number. only until midway then he pressed the 19th floor, and before he left the lift, he asked for my number. -.- i said no of course. CRAZY GUY. buta said he will beat the shyt out of him and scold him. xD he is so cute, but at least i am fine so it doesnt matter. my mama blamed on the shorts which buta bought for me though. whatever.

YEAH, ive got a second round of interview for the customer service at the well-known electronic appliances company. first time im being called back for another interview, which i am quite worried about. i dont really know why need to have another round of interview. but one thing i know is that my interviewers will be of even higher positions, woots scary. hope my normal self can still bedazzle people of higher positions. :/








he reminds me of my first ex with that small single eyelid eyes..okay enough of cute boy boy.

in Greek mythology, Nike (Greek Νίκη pronounced [níːkɛː], meaning Victory), was a GODDESS who personified triumph throughout the ages of the ancient Greek culture.

cant wait for SATURDAy, for it sounds so sweet. ;D

so if you need me and i make you feel alive, i know i must be doing something right

YEAH, KYOKO FUKADA! the rest are nonsense. xD


what about my sister? does she look like me? or maybe until she grows up.


to think for others, or think for yourself? sometimes it is difficult to decide which. i really wish i could find myself a job, i dont wish to have or be a burden. yesterdays job interview was pretty fun, got interviewed by 3 people from the company. as the job was customer service through calls only at a well-known electronic appliances company, the guy said the job will be boring because i will be doing the same thing everyday (60-80 phone calls per day). but i seriously think doing something is really better than doing nothing; doing nothing (and have no money to spend) is then really very boring! i dont mind making very good friends with the telephone, better than being spouse with the air at home. its really saddening that i still need to wait for an answer, totally clueless of whether got hope or not..

but not to worry, i do have a "pity" savings contributed by loving mama and sweet buta (and loving papa just gave me also). i am still able to be alive.

saturday 16/8: extremely torturing for not able to contact one another for 6 days, moreover poor buta was released pretty late on friday night so didnt meet. i was guai enough to not go out throughout the week, was broke too. anyway we met to have lunch at Pizza Hut before going to Dynasty KTV. after lunch we managed to find the archery cup at MacDonalds which my mama missed getting. so he got her the cup and finally she has the full set of Olympic cups and wawas.



lol his mouth and fat lips. my baby buta is so cute!

i know i look fat, so need to hide. x)





buta can also fight with my REAL lashes. his lashes always remind me of snuffleupagus (aka snuffy) from Sesame Street because they are damm long and hanging downwards. one day i am going to tape his eyes become double eyelids! he seems to have the potential.



watched Journey to the Centre of the Earth, it was a very interesting and adventurous movie. but buta was sleeping during the first part of the movie. :/ the movie isnt boring, its just that he was too tired and he missed the fun adventures (the roller coaster ride in the mines! woohoo). i remembered seeing a poster of that movie in 3d, but then dont know why there wasnt any in 3d anymore. the movie will definitely be better in 3d, or even best in 4d!

after the movie we headed to Bedok to eat Botak Jones. the queue was damm long, but buta still went to queue. too bad that now the fries arent free flow anymore, the taste of their fries are really awesome. i had their burger and i like the bread, just nice to bite. well i usually go for texture and smell when it comes to food. and buta has ribeye which was nice, but he was so wasteful to not finish the steak! but got to admit, Botak Jones is just like Carls Jr, everything is served in big portions. definitely will be very full, so sometimes i dont really like to eat there, in exception of the fries..and only crispy ones.



oops flour is sinful, but i really dont care.


sunday 17/8: met up with thomas to go Marina Square walk walk. watched Love Guru with siewsiong's complimentary passes and he was working on that day also. got free Money No Enough 2 coin bank, which was pathetic small and impossible to store many coins (the black piece is for storing coins). talk about money will be enough. -.- the only cute thing about the coin bank is its two long coin slots.









my sister recently crazes about Playhouse Disney website. the features are really cute, interactive and fun. i like their cartoons too, and yes i do watch.


monday 18/8: woke up at 7am in the morning to prepare for 3 interviews with 2 agencies and 1 temporary job application. pretty busy as i need to travel to bugis then suntec and finally chinatown before heading home. but at the end, i was not chosen for that job as a frontdesk. anyway this was one of the most tired day ever, so let me show you my pig face. :x

my mama's orchids, quite beautiful. i doubt i will have plants of my own next time, except cactus maybe. im too lazy.

as siewsiong skipped school while thomas had his off day, we met at Toa Payoh Entertainment Centre before going to Orchard to look for gold (note: dont have such colour) crumpler bags which siewsiong wishes to buy to "xian zhar bo". had lunch at Entertainment Centre and setted off to Wheelock Place, found the gloomy bear mini pouch which was sold out at several places.

was really very confused whether to buy or not, because only left with blue and white, and those colours didnt appeal much to me. i also doubt myself that i will wear or bring the bear out. after much much consideration, i bought the blue one (the white one has pink nose, N O to pink) since i didnt have any other choices. we then walked to Plaza Singapura hoping to get a free SHE contact lens case by purchasing contact lens solution with my voucher, but didnt have stock there so later we headed to Vivo City. what an excursion!







walked around Vivo City and visited my cute little puppies! they will even play with you, but too bad they are seperated from us with a piece of glass. we also had Ben & Jerrys mix and match ice cream as thomas has staff discount cards. :D love their furniture, so moo-moo cute.



soon we headed back Toa Payoh for dinner and siewsiong also left his belongings at Entertainment Centre. the journey was damm long, but we occupied ourselves by taking funny shots. we also tried to figure out thomas phone as his paranoma shoot was totally clueless for us to use, mine is still better.





had dinner at Entertainment Centre where we had lunch, and it was raining heavily then. after that we went to watch Meet Dave, for free yet again. we were allowed to hiong in. the movie was very cute and funny, but also kind of lame. later i accompanied thomas to meet his friend at Braddell for debt collection. and so i sold to thomas 2 bottles of contact lens solution, as 3 in a pack is too many for me. when heading home, i got scolded by my mama for going out the whole day with 2 guys. but i dont really care if theres really anybody who wants to gossip about me, because i never go out secretly or do anything wrong. i did tell my boyfriend, my brothers also know very well about their positions and they will protect and take care of me. but of course, if my boyfriend ever mention that he minds, i will definitely 99% not meet up with any other guys. 1% will be when i really really need to go out (maybe with plus minus tolerance). LOL.





absolutely love the SHE contact lens case. so cute with mirror and tweezer! so altogether i went to bugis, suntec, chinatown, toa payoh, orchard, dhoby ghaut and harbourfront. whao, beat! anyway i enjoy seeing self shots of my sister, they are always so very cute. she really loves to take photoshoots, always playing with handphone cameras.






tuesday 19/8: went Ang Mo Kio to have dinner with weiling after i got home from my interview. after dinner we stayed at the arcade before heading home. i was damm sleepy, i even had problems raising my arms when playing para para. or maybe due to my fattiness. sometimes i really feel like going for a jog or whatever exercise, i do wish to be slim. but i am freaking lazy. plus my in front and behind will also together become smaller. so how? :/





as usual i walked her home to Yio Chu Kang. when we took our first picture by the street, funnily one taxi stopped but left after the picture was taken. her watch is really very nice. too bad Levis doesnt have such transparent straps. such coincidential that we wore in yellow.







she wanted to take picture of me for her handphone contact picture. i always request to take a shot of her for mine, but got rejected everytime. so now its my turn to reject her as well. x) HEE.











last night i had a nightmare, i dreamt of a moth on my thumb's fingernail. i didnt bother about it and wanted to take a shot of the moth and myself. then the moth poke in between the flesh and fingernail that inside which was damm painful! when pulling out the moth, i woke up and saw a round fluttering thing in front of me, and just beside my bolster. the thing was as big as my fist and it was as if had many wings. i stared at it for about a minute or so to figure what was it before hitting it down with my bolster. so i woke up at 4am+ and saw smses before going back to sleep. i am still clueless on what on earth is that thing, but maybe really is imagination. oh, my menses seems to make me smelly. i feel that i should get the feminine wash which i always see in magazines. but its a little embarrassing, later my mama think too much or what. i do am "cute and innocent" (quoted because someone told me so) oki. xD

i was sad that my sweets only managed to call me at 1am, poor buta. thought his handphone no battery or he had forgotten about me.."lousy". and poor him only can book out on saturday. no more friday night dinner again. sob sob. love the poem he wrote for me today, every poem by him never fails to make my heart melt. TEEHEE.

i am sorry that i flooded my own blog. CIAOS, going out with wifey again! *late.