this place is so empty, my thoughts are so tempting

yesterday was so tired, because its the start of new term already. monday blues. so i went for emaths3 tutorial, our female relief lecturer suddenly there. oh my god, she said she is now our permanent lecturer and tutor. where fish face gone to? i like him, sickening woman. also got back my first three papers, quite happy about them though i remembered i didnt study much. kept playing during the term test.

emaths3 - 75/100
principle of dynamics - 88/100
pod quiz - 20/20
microcontroller technology - 31/40

i see the principle of dynamics paper, was quite proud of myself. except for careless mistakes which wasted my marks away, i actually copied the formula given in the question wrongly! oh i did something stupid yesterday too. my friends and i decided to skip emaths3 lecture, so i stepped onto something sticky on the floor. my shoes were like sticky sticky when on that stuff on the floor, i said "wah lao sticky sticky one". then shawn repeated "sticky sticky one" with that face smiling at me. i suddenly shouted "xiow arh", then all surprised including myself. after that jasper kept calling me xiow bin, what a bastard. next time i am going to be very alert to what i am going to spit out. so after school, we went challenger and walked around. then chinaik asked me why i like never really contact with my boyfriend (dont know how people will know), jasper always sms and find his melissa, while kaisheng is sort of "hopelessly almost single". i was rather hard to say, but melissa was having half of the same feelings as me, so jasper helped me say. anyway i was intending to go back school at 7pm to just take attendance for my 6-7 lecture, because it will be a mess anyway. the bus23 was damm slow, and i reached at the door step 7.01pm. opened the door, and there was nobody except the lecturer and one student helping her. i was like, oh my god i ran all the way and i got this shyt. hopefully, i dont get another warning letter. so i told kaisheng about it, he usually always sms me "funny stuffs" happening to him, it was then i too do the same. i took bus28 home, and saw samantha on the bus, such coincidence. it had been a long while since i saw her, and we talked all the way until i reached my bus stop. yesterday kaihong sent me one funny sms, then i replied, then jane sent me the same funny sms. -.- pretty funny.

this morning, i skipped my two lectures and intending to go for 12pm class. but actually i got mistaken, my class 1pm then start. at 9am+ tuckyong told me he skipped classes so wanted to have breakfast, i just woke up but just went. we had breakfast at koufu, it was like since a long while i will talk while eating. tuckyong was the culprit, made me talk with my mouth full and food even flew out once. so unglam already. after that we walked around and then played arcade, i won him two times initialD with my black evo III. this shows that i am rather observant, as i always see my friends play initialD. :) quite fun, and the bents were irritating. we played photo hunt too, and cheated some matching games by using his camera phone. but we still didnt beat the high score, high score can draw signature you know, i wanted to do that. then we went lazerFlair to see see, and we went seperate ways to take bus to school. i reached school and found the computer lab, minutes later everybody settled down and waited. until the previous class lecturer who was going to leave said "today like no class, check with your lecturer". so we called the lecturer, though the time table stated this week got class, he said next week then start. i was like oh my god i came school for nothing, everybody also said that to me. as it was still early, i followed them to tampinesMall and we had swensens. chinaik, shawn and me shared the topless5, consisting of 5 types of ice cream. i chose pisachoAlmond flavour, and it was nice! :) kaisheng ordered mocha, i told him later at night couldnt sleep (he really went to try, and instantly slept soundly). so we were all talking talking, suddenly a rather fat woman sat nearby laughed damm loudly. we all really, really got shocked and turned. then we all laughed quite hard to ourselves, she was sort of crazy. we were like the only people nearer to her, and she sat alone. she wore her skirt so high, it was way above waist and showed her legs. the guys kept talking about her skirt and legs (of course bad comments) and she still kept laughing loudly at times again and again. her laughter kept making us laugh, it was really crazy. jasper even said her laughter is quite nice, thats why we will laugh at her laughter. then nigel was saying it could be gotcha or something, better not go near her. and we became quite cautious, but actually she was most probably just quite mentally ill. she was still quite alright when she could tell the waitor that her order didnt come and she waited quite long, and she paid after eating. wonder what happened to her and what she was thinking, made her laugh so loudly (was rather curious). after that took bus home, and rested awhile later went out had dinner with tuckyong and leslie. didnt want to go, was really tired but i already told my papa not to buy for me. and he came home already, so i had to leave or else he will scold me. after dinner, leslie and i waited for bus. his came first so he left and then mine came a little later.

boo my sore throat is still damm irritating! oh found this picture of a little cute singapore girl, looks like somebody? :D

ive been high, been low, and nowhere to go

its another day, ive been so regular in blogging these past few days. yesterday i woke up and done with my online quiz, so i can have that burden down and go out carefreely. what irked me was that my online quiz cannot redo, and i had one careless mistake due to my blurness and short sightedness (?). wasted one mark gone, argh.

Selected Answer:
gender equality vanishes with more husbands than wives requiring medical attention.
Correct Answer:
gender equality vanishes with more wives than husbands requiring medical attention.

how blur can i get? never mind, pass can already with that 2.5% for each quiz. so after my quiz, i played some fun maps at battle.net, such as line tower wars (all time favourite) and worm war! since it was playing at battle.net so it was always full house, dont get to play full house with friends right, so it was really funny. after that played other fun maps with tuckyong, weixiong and ronald. we played this first fun map, overall it is a fun map (duh). but i was the last defender, so it wasnt that "wee so fun wee". so i talked to hanhua, because i not sure boonkiat got remember to tell him to fetch me or not. so he asked me to prepare myself first and was going to fetch me later. since the game almost didnt need me, so i idle to do my own stuff. after that game then played element td, which was funner, or rather more fun. later hanhua called and said he reached my house downstairs already, so i went down and it was raining. boarded his car and sat front seat, the air con just blew at my face so cold. then went to fetch zhaowei, or rather ken, i kept saying his name wrongly (i kept saying zhaode :x). it had been a long long while since i saw him which was during secondary school days, so he looked thinner a bit. ken was also having barbeque at the same place with boonkiat, and also celebrating his birthday. though both of their birthdays are on 26th and 27th. so the guys had to carry and move their stuffs to the car, leaving me alone in the car at times. but there was a toy pig which hanhua gave me to cover from the coldness, it accompanied me then. did stupid things with it, because it was so cute, rest of the time i will just daze around. oh my god, hanhua has become hante (anyway thats his nickname).

then ken sat behind had to carry his noodles and fried rice, he said its very hot. and he was really afraid when hanhua had to speed up or turn at corners, i too felt that fear. ken also kept using me as the "bait", telling hanhua cannot speed or else the noodles will fly to my head. hanhua also kept saying about the roads on how to go to places (because ken drives a bike) and talked about the safety stuffs (because there were a lot of mindless people). then got one female driving a legacy, hanhua kind of compete with her, and he kept talking about her. anyway reached already, we helped carry ken's stuffs to his pits. boonkiat's two pits and ken's two pits were just next to each other, boonkiat booked one for family one for friends, ken booked both for friends, should just book one pit then merrier. boonkiat then told me hanhua got no license yet, i was kind of shocked actually but never mind hes good. then i started to help barbeque food for boonkiat, kind of first time doing solo. was pretty unsure, but turned out okay, the food were edible. and it was freaking hot, never wear black tee while doing barbeque, it felt like burning against my skin. the charcoal i spreaded and fanned also worked, became quite big, so proud of myself. :) then slowly it turned dark, and guess what. only that pit didnt have light, so damm hard barbeque, cannot even see, then kind of burnt some chicken wings. after that hanhua said going to sengkang fetch xue-er, so i went along, need to have a break you know. then we talked craps along the way, he said he got mistaken as xiao jie or xiao mei by aunty shop attendants a few times. they really must be eye flower, but hanhua thinks maybe of his small eyes or what, he got mistaken as a butch. after we reached compassPoint to fetch xue-er, she said to fetch a guy named daniel at expo. i didnt know xue-er is SO vulgar, she kept uttering vulgarities and talking aloud on the car. shocked, what shyt vulgarities all just came out, damm outgoing. after fetching daniel, we went back to the pit and the no light pit abandoned already, boonkiat combined everything to his family there de pit. so that outgoing girl wasnt that outgoing afterall, her friends asked her go boonkiat's pit there, she kept dont want. boonkiat said it was she broke up with him, so why she like that? oh that daniel guy looked weird, kept smiling smiling (siao siao). anyway the cakes were yummy, so glad i like to eat cakes and i get to eat 2 sides' cakes. :x hinghung (seen before in bwlss only) and fiona was there too, awhile later she and her friend said they were going off so i asked if she could fetch me home too. she agreed, but boonkiat didnt let them go off so early. actually true enough, there wasnt much things to do and everybody was quite here there everywhere and bored. so we no choice sat at the bench facing the beach and talked, her friend was called eileen, looks quite cute because of her cheeks. and we gossipped about xue-er, overall was why boonkiat will like such a girl, she was pretty big sized compared to boonkiat too, so love is really blind. then eileen wanted to go toilet, but the toilet at the beach was dirty, so hanhua brought her out to the toilet. so i talked to fiona about some guys stuff, saying "boys will always be boys" is the outer excuse, but the inner feelings is always full of craps. oh she called flora, and flora didnt recognise my voice (maybe because of my sore throat). then fiona said the dolphin earring i wore she also have, such coincidence. after eileen came back, and awhile boonkiat appeared, i told boonkiat about me need to go home early. he nearly forgot, heartless. then he also a bit no choice, so letted us go home. was listening to the radio on fiona's car and the conversation the dj and a listener had was pretty funny, and they broadcasted JOLIN's song. :) after that fiona dropped me near my house, im quite embarrassed to trouble others. thanks for fetching me! and also small thanks to the convenience of cars.

today i was supposed to go church service with tuckyong, but i woke up with a cold. now its sore throat plus cold, rawr! so sorry to all, i seemed to always cannot make it for their outings. hope for better luck next time. and hope i recover faster! for sore throat, i will be rejecting to eat those good food in school. for cold, i will have to keep bringing tissues and sneezing all the way, SO IRRITATING. so please, i will be good (lol).

with sorrows, with happiness, with feelings of you

not long ago came home, bathed and came online. saw vincent so just wished him a happy birthday, hmm dont know he got go boonkiat's barbeque at night or not. :s anyway just the day before (because it is midnight already) i woke up early in the morning 9.30am to choose my electives for my course. slept at around 3+am and so slept for barely 6 hours, oww. went online and saw my friends camping too, so we conference until 10am the registration finally started and we shared our discussions. actually come to think of it, no need so eager. somehow the results heard are based on our results, with first come first serve basis not highly priortised. anyway also good, faster done with it faster off with the burden. oh i still got one more online quiz not done dueing sunday midnight but teacher say sunday system will crash, and i got my first warning letter for not attending the 4hours damm boring machining technology lab class during the starting of term break. rawr! so after my friends and i were done with the registration, we had dota mania until 2pm. my mama kept scolding me for not eating lunch, because lunch was already ready around noon. after lunch watched the dota replay kaisheng sent me, really quite amazing to watch. its about junli, he isnt very good at playing dota yet sometimes like to boast. then always retreat unnessassarily and then chiong when nobody is there. so the replay showed he used the vengeful spirit and owned with 48 kills, quite funny also. my friends were talking in private, and sometimes purposely let him solo and gave free kills. but other time, they were all shocked by his improvements and became so steady. anyway then around 5pm went toa payoh interchange to meet for a movie. i was almost the earliest, some buses at my house dont go toa payoh interchange, and im always not sure which ones, so i always take those familiar ones to the interchange. then ronald was on 159 which wasnt familiar to me, and i took the next bus. he went toilet, so i thought i was the first. :D then tuckyong and weixiong reached, went cdrama and weixiong bought jolin's J-Best cd (ahh JOLIN, shou ai ni). after gwyneth reached already then we headed to cineleisure by bus, and poor ronald was so quiet. reached already bought the tickets and had dinner, then kevin called that he also watching so bought another ticket. then yaungai also watching, bought another ticket. after leslie reached already, we went up to watch She's The Man. woohoo, get to see amandaBynes again, i always watch her funny shows on nickelodeon, but no more already. i rather like the movie, its damm funny so kept laughing all the way. especially the spider part, the cute guy (duke) actually acted SO GAY, which was super hilarious just looking at his damm face. and its pretty funny thinking, to prove you are a guy, just take off pants. while to prove you are a girl, just take off shirt. somehow amanda looks fatter especially her face, or i just never really notice her fats. so after the movies, went to toilet. VERY IMPORTANT to go loo always especially with urgency, its good for health. cannot find or long queues, die die have to find one toilet bowl to relief oneself. :) and after that, went to play a match of dota at cuppage. kind of waste money actually, at home can play you know you know. but never mind, guess long long once its okay. and it is a form of gathering for those who dont play with us at home. yeahh. after the match of dota, its late already, 11.30pm like that. then got dragged a bit, ronald or yaungai suggested to take cab home. eh so happy got people think for me, thanks yaungai (though it was simple, i am still grateful). starting couldnt find any cab, later yaungai and i went further then managed to hail a cab. then got traffic jam, so the taxi driver took another route and they letted me off first. i was quite embarrassed actually, seemed it was because of me so i paid 5$ though it was 6+$ at my house. but it was all good. damm tired!

i cant make me, you cant either

11th - went to see doctor at a nearby clinic. the doctor just said 90% not heart which is in pain, but its the muscle wall. the muscle wall which is covering the heart and lungs, at the rib there. said may be infected by virus, so when breathing the muscle will open and somewhere got infected or wounded or whatever so will have a sharp pain. also said have to stretch more, and gave me some muscle relaxing gel and painkillers already. actually thought that the doctor saying something, which i may know. a bit of waste money?

12th - went escape theme park with boonliang, gwyneth, ferline, weixiong and darling. almost all the rides were open except the panasonic indoor roller coaster and the cabury inverter. so sad, both so fun but everytime under maintainance. last time also dont have everytime under maintainance, i everytime get to sit all the rides. and i got to sit the rainbow ride for the first time, it was very fun. then at night when the rest went for their go-kart again, ferline and i (because she dont play go-kart so i accompanied her) went for the rainbow ride. it was near to closing time, and nobody was at the queue, we got to sit the ride two times at one go. the assistants there are quite good, and quite funny. at closing time, we got to go already and we went back toa payoh lorong 8 market there. i didnt eat, then the rested had their dinner or supper. oh the table we reserved was not cleared, so after boonliang had finished his food, he just took some tissue on the table near leslie's plate of fries and wiped his mouth. leslie got blurred and said where he got the tissue from. boonliang thought the western gave leslie tissue, but dont have, so actually the tissue was previously used before! damm hilarious, boonliang always like to make fun of others especially their pronounciation, finally got something to laugh at him. then he was saying next day got basketball match, at BAC or BAS i forget. we agreed on going.

13th - heard the match starts at 7.15pm, so tuckyong, weixiong, ferline, darling and me met at toa payoh interchange at 6.30pm. actually it was 6pm then changed, because some of us ate dinner first. but one by one all late, very late. we waited for bus, but think sure very late so changed to take taxi. no taxi wants to take us in, so we had to split to two taxis. starting the taxi darling and me dont know how to go, then tuckyong called and told the uncle, he know already. but their side dont know how to go, then at the end i got familiarised and the taxi went wrong side so we just alighted. walked to the BAC or BAS got no boonliang nor audience at sight, boonliang was also unreachable. then leslie suggested maybe boonliang at other places in the area having that competition, but in the end we didnt go or find anywhere, just walking non stop like hiking but on flat ground. later boonliang finally responded and he explained he forgot his competition wasnt at that place but at jurong. he too came down to BAC or BAS then took taxi to jurong, and he didnt update us the venue because he thought we just say say only. later we went back to toa payoh then waited for him and gwyneth at long john silver, after that played basketball at block56. everything was so black to me without my glasses in the dark. :D

15th - went to watch silentHill with darling. have quite a nice plot, but i dont like the GORE parts. rawr! actually want watch Cars, but darling in the end want watch silentHill. i thought its horror, got ghosts or what. but the "ghosts" are disgusting looking, not really ghosts, probably demons. anyway quite a nice show, i understand the show! darling didnt understand, i explain then he knows. blurr.

16th - went to meet tuckyong and darling at bishan to have dinner, then i went home already while darling stayed at tuck's place until morning. thanks tuckyong for lending me your bus pass, else i really wanted to walk home. im miss thrifty.

17th - early in the morning 10.40 like that went tuckyong's house. actually he said 10.30am at his house, but i was still early, he still sleeping and boonliang havent reach. after boonliang reach already, we went shopping. bought all the food and stuffs for the barbeque that night. we walked so far and carried so much heavy stuff, somemore "free labour". :D then we walked until his brother's house to take the 4 packets of chicken wings, we took bus back to his house. it was one stop only, then i asked the bus driver how much because i didnt bring my wallet only some coins. she said 90cents, for one stop! i only had 50cents, then tuckyong told the bus driver, please, can lah, one stop only, something like that. then the bus driver say can, so generous. :) reached his house forgotten to buy somemore stuff, went to buy again. then really tired, sat at bubble tea shop outside the chair dont feel like standing up anymore. went back his house, tuckyong's mother already marinated and cutted all the 88 chicken wings, pro! then boonliang and i had job to do, peel and cut the potatoes. we kind of slow, slower than his mother, of course. but we learnt something! isaac later came too, then they played ps2. played until around 5 or 6 i forgot, we then took taxi down bishan to meet melvin. went to the barbeque pit and prepared everything. then yaungai reached first, helped start the fire. slowly the rest reached, but the food couldnt really finish. oh the pit had to be booked for 15$ then melvin didnt book, got fined another 15$ for misuse. but luckily boonliang and melvin talked until 50% off, so still got charged 15$. melvin said he came so many times without booking already, that day quite unlucky then. :s slacked and talked a lot, then played the soccer ball. konghong said my skills not bad, can become a player. :D i didnt know i can dribble either, though not very good. oh when ferline and i went for a stroll, got two indian guys whistle us from the void deck. then we continued walking, a china guy jogging purposely jogged in front of us and mumbled dont know what. so we went toilet, then we continued walking until a corner ferline turned back and told me those two indian guys again. i didnt wear spectacles so i dont recognise, quite funny. then we faster go to the nearest television where there was a crowd watching soccer. after the two indian guys sat down, we walked away. then i turned back, the indian guys got look at us. quite scary? but actually could be coincidence. so we went to find the rest playing soccer, ferline was saying suddenly a van stopped and take us away. then i said about the mini bus driving near us, suddenly it stopped. it was pretty funny, but nothing actually. went back then talked ghost stories all morning, and other stuffs. i think it was very fun, then went darling's house sleep after the sun came up and everybody went home.

18th - slept until after lunch then ate the lunch darling's mother bought, which became dinner. it was father's day, bought mars chocolate for papa. then took 58 from darling's house to pasir ris, met my brother and we bought pancake for papa. but my papa said he ate a lot already, so cant eat anymore. oh i had chalet until 21st.

20th - went wild wild wet, then at night went to watch Sesame Street Live with mama and sis, quite nice. but still a little kid for me. oh each kid were given one packet of theNatural sweet (VERY NICE) then only my sis got one packet. which wasnt enough, my mama went to ask for more, the person actually gave her 5 more packets, so good and yummy. :D so after that papa's friends called him for a gathering, my mama let me go, but my papa dont let me go. he said all men, all talk rubbish and nobody will talk to me. so i just went to find my brother while my parents went with my sister. the arcade got the machine which can catch toys, and i saw a guardian angel pig very cute. i tried catching, then got three guys came. one guy said he help me catch, and another guy said later he cannot catch waste my money. then the third guy told me the pig very cute, catch already give him, i then said i also want. after they went away, i tried catch again. first time i tried grabbing the heart the pig was holding, then one guy beside me found it amusing i guess. then i tried it again, i actually grabbed the heart and it was hanging on the claw! the guy quickly told his friend and they looked amusingly, i was so happy i caught the pig finally. then got one father said to his daughter that i caught the pig. the pig actually a bit dirty, but no more already so nevermind. :) cutie pig.


21th - come home already. i miss my friends. school going to start already!

i want to know what its like on the inside of love

its the holidays already. means can sleep more, which i like to do very much. first day of holiday, did nothing! apparently slacking all the way. at home played dota 6.33b with my fellow battle.net friends, chiong arr. play until kind of headache now. :s

actually i was supposed to go sentosa for some outing with my brothers and the church peeps. but i didnt go at the end, so sorry. anyway i will still be very free, you know you know.

hmm on friday, had my programmable automation test. this subject, mainly do practicals, but the paper is sort of theory based. damm hard can, theory means have to memorise. so many damm bloody words, how to memorise! so a bit scared may fail this 25% weightage paper, argh. after my one hour paper, went home around 11+am. then met darling at toa payoh interchange to go buy my new swim suit at city hall. found quite a while then bought a suitable one. oh at some shop i found a piece i like, its white and black. but no padding, what the hell how to wear. then i asked if got provide padding or something, but no have to ownself buy and sew up or something. -.- then found something decent and bought the top, and off to jurong swimming complex. it was raining, but darling said just go, probably will stop. took taxi from the hotel, damm i like ushers, or are they called bell boys. went there, 12$+ i think (expensive!). then off to swim, first time swam with darling only. darling protected me, then i sticked to darling, huggies muackkies (LOL :x). the water was damm cold, VERY the freezing cold. so kept clinging onto darling, was longing for some warmth. quite fun, played the dumb slide which will shoot down so fast. and i was quite scared, in the end i landed upside down on the water. came up darling said my face was red, damm the water all went up my nose. never got anything good from playing that slide, thats what made me afraid. anyway then kept swimming around, slacking around. spotted one big breasted girl, she herself is quite big sized too, sorry just amazed. around 7+ then went wash up (forgotten to bring my comb) and ate my first meal of the day : dinner! had ONE BUDDY MEAL with darling, drumsticks and thighs woohoo. after dinner, took bus and went home. tired tired. oh 9th was also thomas' son, baby aloysious' one monthsary. was invited but so sorry didnt go celebrate, but probably tomorrow will visit thomas and pass him the gift.

hmm often my chest may pain when i breath hard. but recently kept having that problem more frequently, quite scary but still waiting. maybe its nothing, or else have to see doctor. but when think about it, what if i have some sickness..later i become a burden or what. sigh :) hope not.