you get what you are given, its all how you use it

cant believe im saying this myself.
IM THINKING TOO MUCH!!
im going to be mad.

i have: studied, read every word in my coursebook, did tutorials, did past year papers, highlighted whatever shit, tried to memorise whatever shit, going through again and again.

i think: seem quite easy but later exam questions very hard, i cannot recall what i memorised, i cannot remember how to do, i forget everything and dont know anything!

later stress. :( anyway read this article about sleep. it says that those who sleep about seven hours a day have been associated with having increased health and well-being. a study conducted found that people who slept an average of seven hours a night lived longer than those who slept six or eight hours. there also wrote "something to think about, definately" lol. quite interesting, but the right amount of sleep actually varies among people (when you wake up automatically without any disturbance, thats the amount of sleep your body needs). then it also says that your brain is as active as it is during waking hours.
divided into two phases, 75 to 80% of your sleep time is in the Non-Rapid Eye Movement phase (you experience sudden jerks, slowly lose your awareness of the external environment and finally fall into a deep sleep where its hard to wake you up) and the other 20 to 25% is in the Rapid Eye Movement (where you will dream, and you will experience periodic eyelid fluttering, muscle paralsis so you wont act out your dreams, and irregular breathing). true in the interesting way.
sleep also maintains physical and emotional well-being, rejuvenates and restores the body and mind, repairs and renews tissues and nerve cells, organises long term memory, integrates new information and allows mind to sort out past, present and future feelings. sleep!

oh yay, just now i weighed myself for fun. since quite long never weigh myself, and i lost 3kg. happy or sad? but still will gain back. :D

*do what you do, what you say, what you feel
do what you do, let your hands that can heal

sometimes life can be a burden
try'na stay one step ahead
i feel the world upon my shoulder each time
im standing out on the edge
and my hopes have all deserted me
like they washed away in the sand
and its hurting my pride
try'na survive
but i know i stand a chance

when you lay your hands
oh yeah
cause its the only thing i have that still makes sense

(oh baby, when im calling out)
give me love and affection
keep telling me, show me the way
(oh, if you see me falling down)
lift me up from the shadows
will you take me away to a better place
(and when im in my darkest hour)
you're by my side, to turn the tide
until the suffering fades
when life is getting me down
getting me down, im close to defeat
come and lay ur hands on me

feel this road is getting longer now
and im too far away from home
still i gotta keep on moving on
but i cant do it on my own
baby keep my head above water
help me swim for my life
cause the game is getting harder
the strain is gettin stronger
and i can only face the fight

when you lay your hands
oh yeah
cause its the only thing i have that still makes sense

(oh baby, when im calling out)
give me love and affection
keep telling me, show me the way
(oh, if you see me falling down)
lift me up from the shadows
will you take me away to a better place
(and when im in my darkest hour)
you're by my side, to turn the tide
until the suffering fades
when life is getting me down
getting me down, im close to defeat
come and lay ur hands on me

til im healed again
rediscovered my strengths
those bitter blues are gone
oh, gone

(oh baby, when im calling out)
give me love and affection
keep telling me, show me the way
(oh, if you see me falling down)
lift me up from the shadows
will you take me away to a better place
(and when im in my darkest hour)
you're by my side, to turn the tide
until the suffering fades
when life is getting me down
getting me down, im close to defeat
come and lay ur hands on me

come and lay your hands on me

all of us believe in what we need, what we have is what we dont see

我走过动荡日子
追过梦的放肆
穿过多少生死
却假装若无其事
穿过半个城市
只想看你样子
这一刻最重要的事
是属於你最小的事
世界纷纷扰扰喧喧闹闹
什黱是真实
为你跌跌撞撞傻傻笑笑
买一杯果汁
就算庸庸碌碌匆匆忙忙
活过一辈子
也要分分秒秒年年日日
全心守护你
最小的事

我就算壮烈前世
征服滚滚乱世
万人为我写诗
而幸福却是此时
静静帮你提著
哈罗凯蒂袋子
这一刻最重要的事
是属於你最小的事
世界纷纷扰扰喧喧闹闹
什黱是真实
为你跌跌撞撞傻傻笑笑
买一杯果汁
就算庸庸碌碌匆匆忙忙
活过一辈子
也要分分秒秒年年日日
全心守护你
最小的事
最重要的事

你笑得像个孩子
每个平凡小事
变成永恒故事

today went to school study a bit with my friends, and most importantly took notes and photocopied tutorials. by tomorrow should be can start studying for my examinations seriously with 99% concentration (1% goes to walking around, eating snacks). if i want to study, i like to study from afternoon until night, in isolation. anyway i have wrote this in my msn personal message and i aint faking it. i seriously thinks that if i pass all of my papers, i will treat everybody eat pizza hut! thanks to those who helped me look at the positive side, i pass then i happy so i can celebrate and treat everybody eat right. thanks for having hope towards me too. :D but of course there is no such good deal on earth, there is surely a condition. and that is i will treat those whom i meet first during anyday of that week after i recieve my results sms. so if my results day happened to be on saturday, and i dont see anybody by sunday, the treat will be passed. its a deal!

well on valentines day, i had my presentation. i think that was the first time i presented so naturally without notes or preparations. moreover ive only seen the slides twice, its about shopping. so maybe i could relate to it, that why? :) there was this pair of malays, (one of them super handsome) they presented so well and were even having fun presenting, the lecturer asked for their signatures. quite funny, and they really did give him their signatures. after that i went to toa payoh and to meet leslie, we had dinner at pizza hut. jasper wanted to bring his girlfriend to eat that pizza lovers meal because he said was a budget meal, and coincidentally leslie brought me to eat that "budget meal" too. x)

the heart shaped pizza. he last minute want take picture.
it wasnt really that budget, still have to add 4+$ for the gst. after that we went bishan to eat haagen daz fondue, but too many people were queueing so it was passed. so we walked around junction8 for quite some time, saw konghong with a girl there too. later we decided to go back toa payoh to treat him have almond paste, nice! we shared one bowl then, was too full already. and then walked home, saw konghong with the girl again lol.

darling and me. he wants to see "darling" instead of "leslie"


oh yay, pretty long ago saw this animal outside heeren. everybody were surrounding this pet with its owner. so i went to have a closer look and when i saw its side view, i was like OMG a LION!?! then it turned somemore until its front view faced me, oh its a dog.

cute right? but nigel dislikes dogs and kaisheng said its sick. nevertheless i took kaisheng's handphone and took a picture of it, despite of it keep turning around to look at people (so tame, just sat there). everybody was taking pictures of it!

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR.
dragon's lucky colour is white.

初一 went to my father's eldest brother house, and i had to wear a qi pao this year for the first day. its weird, especially when i had to go weicheng's house later. tuckyong said i looked like the waitress working at jiu lou. this year was pretty fun compared to other years, maybe because got benson to entertain me. we are good siblings. :D alan also quite bad, kept shoot me because i kept eating all those tibits which weicheng's sister gave me. she (i kept forgetting weicheng's sister name, argh) also became the "promoter" as she kept giving us those tibits and said its good. i was pretty lucky too. we played 6 players daidee, i sercured first position for damm long. and when i lost, the next round i from 5th rise to 2nd position. 6 players daidee is fun ok, so exciting. after that played blackjack, i used thomas' 10cents to play. won another 10cents and then lost i think, but he letted me play somemore and overall he lost 4$. felt damm guilty and stopped playing, then tuckyong gave me his 50cents. i won 50cents for him and that was the last game. after that they all went to the basketball court while benson, tuckyong, thomas and me played one full round of mahjong. never play money but play flick ear. benson got flicked thrice by us, and the last round he 自摸 and flicked back us three. so lucky right, like revenging. x) then we all left already, tuckyong hailed a taxi and dropped me at my place before going home.

on 初二 i went to my mother's elder sister place until late. i like what i wore this time, glad to see my handsome cousin again. he even brought his friends (3 tall rich guys) BUT im contented lah. x) anyway damm scary. my cousin have two sons, they were damm quiet so i made friends with them. after we had warmed up, they kept taking weapons and beat me! i dont dare sit down, later beat until my face. so i just stood there and let them beat my ass. but the younger one kept make my skirt, damm embarrassing. the younger one actually damm cute, his eyes super big and his lashes super long!

he with my sister, he likes girls better i think. actually both boys are very selfish. then i joined blackjack with my cousins and a niece (small girl, my aunt letted her) because my mother asked me to. didnt have much luck, and worst of all my cousin became a banker, he started to have blackjack 5 times in a row! he was damm lucky, especially after my sister rubbed a toy sword on his neck. dont know that sword is it god sword or not. x) nobody dared to play after that, all dispersed. soon after sending my grandmother back to the nursing home, we all took cab home. my small toes were like tearing apart, due to the new shoes.

finally on 初三 went to tuckyong's place, i was the first to reach. that day really was playing humblely with the money my mother gave me. she always ask me to play big, but i still prefer playing small. well i feel its alright to play with your friends and family, because you can let them happy for once in a year. played a lot of card games throughout the day, like "make 10", blackjack, in between. best part was got double Ace 2 times and blackjack 5-6 times. and another incident was when ronald had to fork out 50+$ and boonliang also forked out 30+$, that game was really a blast. damm exciting. gwyneth really won a lot, woots! ronald i think no need go fall out boys concert already, buy their dvd when its out, it will be a better choice. finally we got to LAO YU SHENG and of course eat! i love to eat yu sheng, i just do. when tuckyong's father said "eat more, dont leave any" im so glad that i really helped myself LOL. after that played somemore, and then went home already.

oh yay, sometimes i feel damm sad that i could not have a true bestie. those whom i thought i had, either like to backstab me or i started to avoid them due to some difficulties faced and we werent good anymore. thomas maybe the lasting one, but he has a family already. we used to always just meet anytime when we need someone for company (because we live near) and even i avoid him, we are still good and could go out. sometimes i think i trust others too easily, especially when he/she happen to say something which i could share too. thus resulting in backstabbed by two persons whom i thought were my friends. and i seriously should kick the habit of avoiding my friends even if i have difficulties telling them something from my mind, i lost two girl pals already! maybe i could never find that ideal friend, maybe i have to meet so many kinds of people to allow me choose wiser who to finally trust. oh well..

this is the final trace of innocence

fly me to the moon
and let me play among the stars.
let me see what spring is like
on jupiter and mars.
in other words,
please be true.
in other words,
i love you.
<3

Asses that outshine DotArians (in a way)
the Spoiler - last minute decisions or just finds it funny :gamerr leabiin att 4..:
the Sickening - lagger who disconnects or not :whiie sho lagg? nett orr hubb? hostt dliin pornn arr..nubx hostt:
the Soloist - big headed fish monger :oyy siiamm moii lanee..mii solo:
the Supporter - joins another crowded lane :nort mii lett hiim farrm..mii cannort takke hiim larrx:
the Standby - helps to see show only :watt euu wann mii tuu do?:
the Selfish - chases the one not attacking teammate who is being ganged to death :mii din c euu larr..he gong dyy wat:
the Saver - doesnt use spells unnecessarily :noo manaa larrx:
the Stingy - quickly takes leavers' items :mii wann dii..euu aso neberr sae:
the Stupid - slow observer or just plain stupid :waahx lycann byye gaulet nn hammerr gong bashherr leiix:
the Spacey - actually finding faults :whiie miissiin neberr reportt? wherr gort? i neberr c:
the Sucker - kills dying leftovers :euu aso cannort kill norhx:
the Sly - last hit kills when teammate helps :tankkiiex ferr saviin mii..oopiies sryy:
the Stubborn - very greedy till death :waah liewx..he henggx:
the Sacrifice - kills or helps to kill but dies :1 ferr 1 siiax..cannort runn liiao watt:
the Seeker - signal for attention but what? :mii neberr askk euu go..mii sae derre gort heroo:
the Silly - under estimates or likes to feed :kayy ann ann:
the Sprinter - ready to run without any care :miie b fiirstt arrhx:
the Strange - indecisive to want follow or not :waahx euu sho chiiong:
the Scared - might as well dont play :miie reallii needd tuu farrm larrx:
the SBC (si beh cha) - non stop communicator :donch! bbbbb! whiie neberr rax?!:
the SBC2 - likes to demoralise others especially when team wins :gee gee euu nubx:
the Solid - best to avoid such hero :holii shiet..he iish beyondd godd lyk..sumone kiill hiim:
the Sore - loser running away from death :noo leabberr pwease:
WHICH ARE YOU? just for fun, i am ass too.


the BEATLES' newest (mixed) album! <3
should i get it? should i? should i?


and Mayday's new album! :)
pretty please?


mini tubs of ben & jerry's ice cream?
no. its lip balm, with ice cream flavour.
thumb sized cuteness!
but magazine stated 10$ each, ouch.

m501: spongepanda, mohawk bone, shit nose, trademark smile, rabbit teethy, botak head, mortar, muay thai, cap and blasting mp3 player.

kaisheng, nigel, junli, darren, alicia, shawn, chinaik, jasper, winston.

8days and i-weekly have freebies!
cute and convenient poker decks.

i bought 8days and my mama happened to buy i-weekly. their poker deck is in tradition chinese style, cute. the face of the cards are in pale brown, so its like antique. she even said the poker decks are pretty worth it, can buy more.

had enough of JERKS everytime "molest" me accidentally or not!!