cant believe what ive found: a life with you around

didnt come online for two days already, New Email Messages : 144. now its 141, i am very lazy to read those of which friends invited me to join friends network or do friendly quizzes. yesterday went Wild Wild Wet, initially it was with tuckyong, ferline, melvin, weiliang and stanley. then weiliang had rashes, stanley couldnt make it, so it became with tuckyong, ferline, melvin, melvin neo, nicky and tenglong. the coupon was valid for 6 people so the four guys helped pay for the extra i think. it was rather "minority" as ive never seen before melvin neo and nicky, and dont really know them either, tuckyong also. so its like sometimes ferline with melvin, then the three guys, left tuckyong and me hang out. so morning i met up with ferline and tuckyong at heeren to shop, then took mrt to pasir ris after lunch. reached there around 1+pm then it started to rain, the people there then advised us to come another day as wont waste our money. but we decided to go arcade awhile to wait for the rain to stop, anyway we went all the way from so far already. played the usual basketball game, then ferline most pro, even tuckyong (scored 35points, lols) and melvin cannot beat. after playing the rain really stopped, then we went in Wild Wild Wet! was my second time go, first time was with ex boyfriend. so we headed to lazy river, nothing much dont have sprinklers or what, just a river going round and round. i only liked it as it is deep enough, the jurong one not deep, then i kept getting scratches on my knees. moreover the floats there are free, so our 4$ quite worth it actually. anyway after that went playground, i still like that big yagult bucket. after a certain time when it fills up, it will pour down like a heavy waterfall (shiok). then everytime the bell rings (means going to full already), everybody will gather under the bucket there and wait, quite funny. after that played Ularlar, a 6 person water ride, like a big river drafting. that one very fun, then played the samsung slideUp, so scary can! last time the float was designed both persons to face outside, then like roller coaster go down. now its face each other, oh my god! i let tuckyong chose first, he chose to face outside, so i had no choice. the starting was really steep, so kind of scary especially its my back facing outside while going down. hahah i held very tight, tuckyong went "wah lan eh!", both my legs also flew out, and we shot up quite high. real scary, he still say viking is scarier (come on noh, viking where got scary =p). then went tsunami after that where ferline dont want play, where i saw wenfang, huiying, vincent and kaiern. tuckyong and i then kept persuading ferline, assuring her safety she still dont want. so we went into the tsunami to find melvin they all, then coincidentally wenfang they all also beside, melvin was like "eh is it him arh?", very funny and we all short sighted also. after that played slides and somemore playground, Ularlar and where also saw them in front of the queue. the rest then went lazy river, while tuckyong and i played the sky cycling, they also in front of us. how come model and vainpot sat together? after that went to eat already because the rest hungry, then they all left. so weixiong came to find tuckyong and i for dinner, where we had half a chicken and spicy toufu. after that went arcade somemore, then went to weixiong's poly friends chalet. then i told tuckyong to stay, he said dont want pangseh me, in the end he stayed but it was fine with me. was very tired, that night only slept for 3hours+. they accompanied me wait for bus, until i couldnt take it i took cab home. that cab driver kind of scary, talked about his debts, his gambling life, his poorness, his wife and children, money, his once successful carreer and the rest of his entire life stories. he spoke a bit of hokkien which i did not understand, and i didnt really know what to say to him, im still young. but can tell he is a nice man, just that his once failure made his struggling badly for survivor. after ive reached home, i only can tell him "thanks, take care" he then said "yes, thanks. always will". then i went home to sleep, for about 12hours plus.

the day before, tuckyong said to accompany him to sell his handphone. weixiong then said he not going, after we meet he turned up. he then told me boonliang also coming, and we were going NP. i was like, never tell me, got bluffed out. but boonliang didnt turn up, so we were blaming tuckyong asked us out then nothing much to do. after selling his handphone, we then went CRC there the arcade play. played some games, then i saw the Pop'nMusic game said

so i pressed, then really got game so i asked them to join in the free game. we then divided the buttons equally among ourselves. i took first three, tuckyong took the blues and red, weixiong took last three.

after our first game, again "Push Red Button To Start" we laughed. on and on we played non stop, we tried all the different versions on the machine and tried the different songs. until we finally saw "freeplay" at the left bottom of the screen, then we got a bit tired of the game already. hugged onto the machine for quite long until dinner time, then went to eat at coffeeshop. after that had nothing to do, walked around ShopNSave, slacked around, then went CRC play normal maps. still dont really know how to play, but found them rather interesting, maybe could get the hang out of them someday. after that went home late already.

sunday went escape theme park with darling, weixiong, tuckyong, gwyneth and ferline. went there all those thrilling rides never open, so they gave us complimentary tickets for our next visit. as we went in the morning, there wasnt many people and we managed to play almost all the rides available except go karts. saw suhail working at one of the rides, though not very close as hes one of the newcomers of our class, its good to see him again. talked to him a little, he also failed one subject. i found him looking quite studious, but he told me his gpa 1.5 or so only. also heard tomorrow (friday) we got to know our supplimentary paper results already, argh! the haunted was quite funny, the uncle in front of us was very brave. he kept poking and touching the ghouls, while talking to his son, even his son was brave! ferline was rather frightened she held onto me, then i kept "going to reach liao, going to reach liao" but havent really reach. after that we went in again, changed ghouls but they not very enthusiatic on disturbing us. genting's haunted adventure more fun. after lunch we bought a very big cotton candy, and we played with it while eating it. we then went out for a walk, came back suddenly got a lot of people and long queues. couldnt play any rides as all very long queues, we then decided to queue the viking until it started to rain very heavily. we then ran in the rain to our lockers to get our stuffs then headed to downtown east there. ate dinner and played arcade, played a lot of the basketball game. i tiptoed while playing, which led to muscle cramps on both lower thighs of my legs, very bad aches. now the left one better already, but the right one worsen (cannot even stand properly, so walk also got problem). hope can heal faster, good day.

you are my daily dose of vitamin L O V E

yesterday was a fun day, woke up rather early. i think im weird, i can wake up whatever time i like and not feeling tired. i usually have troubles sleeping and i will wake whenever in the middle of the night. do have eyebags already, but not feeling tired. :( stressed? anyway early afternoon went out to have lunch with my mother, its nice because she pay. after that she went to find my brother at his school, while i start my journey to cineleisure for a kbox singing session with ferline, flora and gwyneth. took bus from my house, met caroline and sookha on the bus. didnt join them, after alighting at interchange then talked to them. caroline kept smiling at me (??) while i chatted with sookha. then went to take bus to cineleisure, some skinny old businessman sat beside me. he kept moving, lean back then lean forward then repeat. and there were two girls sitting behind me chatting about the variety shows on television mainly Never Say Die, Campus Superstar, dotdotdot. i enjoyed watching Never Say Die, its really interesting. the show is about those who joined Star Idol, Super Host whatever and they got elimated, then have another chance. though it was quite funny to watch, but their "never say die" spirit is much to be looking upon to, i like to see determinations.

there is this girl name valerie, she was kind of known to be "singapore ru hua".

so her features may look a bit like ru hua, she even purposely sang "wo de yi ke xin muack muack". yet she told the interviewer hoping she wont be known as ru hua. no worries valerie, both of you are different. ru hua is a comedian, valerie is a singer. and valerie is quite pretty.

there is a guy, yi qing, hes very good! he is funny, outspoken, loud and thick skin. overall, he is very funny! for his audition, he did some "this is the Kung Fu Fighting" moves for quite long, took off his shirt. then, he PUSHED the water bottle on the chair using his stomach (whao clap clap *faint). and they were at the road show, he and patricia mok were "compared" on whose mouth is bigger. after being measured, he then showed his "hidden talent". did some "Huo Yuan Jia Huo Huo Huo Huo Huo" moves, then stuffed his fist into his mouth. this guy has potential.

as for Campus Superstar, didnt watch all the way. only once, when there were 3 girls and 3 boys. but didnt watch the whole show, just the ending when there was jackpot of which 2 girls and 2 boys get to carry on. yet im updated okay.

heard this guy is rich, and won some international handsome face competition. does he really have a handsome face? i kind of doubt, or is it because he is so rich that his parents like to bribe and donate to others to "vote for my son"? nothing against him, just kind of curious on the possibility. and when someone won, their friends will be standing and cheering and saying their cheers with excitements. notice when he won, nobody stood up and their cheer was murmured. weird.

this girl, i dont like her face. she looks like a witch to me. come and slap me if you dont like what i just said, teehee.

i like this girl, geraline is so COOL. and she looks so pretty on television! and she a bit looks like my favourite band, S.H.E's Ella! i like her so much, i wish i could be her friend. she is so cool can! she dont wear skirt, even though the judges asked her to wear, she REJECT.
anyway back to reality, when i was about to reach cineleisure. i looked at my watch, 2pm already! but nobody called me, so i guessed all late (we meet 1.50pm at mrt). but to be sure, i smsed to say i straight go cineleisure as my bus will drop me nearby. so ferline and gwyneth were late, i met up with flora first as she already reached. we took a walk to cineleisure and walked around and talked. until finally they reached, but it was alright, dont late until too unreasonable is fine. so we took some package which was 2-7pm at 15$, there was another student offer 2-5.30pm at 8$. they had four new drinks, Suan Mei Mei (sour plum+green tea), Ling Mong Di Di (lemon+honey+green tea), Hai Di Ye Ye (sea coconut+green tea) and dont know what Po Po. kind of funny, the guy introduced us Mei Mei and Di Di only at first, then Ye Ye, then i asked got Nai Nai or not, he said only got Po Po. so i ordered Di Di and Ye Ye, both quite nice to drink. we had fun, sang songs, laughed, chatted, ate and threw tibits, and even recorded a song of our own. so we paid 14.70$ each, then until around 5.30pm they said our session was over. we thought we took the 2-7pm package, but they said they had event or something later. but somehow it was supposed to be 15$+++ but we paid 14.70$, they helped us minus already? but still, it was kind of irresponsible of them not letting us know we couldnt stay until 7pm. kind of cheated our money, but i was happy i didnt think so much. went home think about it, damm i should have find out what was happening myself and probably get flared up and argued with them (teehee). after that we had some time to spare, went to the heeren shops to have a walk around. met one matured auntie, LOL. and ferline tried to fool us one by one with a joke, only i was not fooled, i felt so smart you know! after that went out, got free food, free goodie bag as they were promoting a new handphone. i would loved to at least take the goodie bag, but i tried to hide my "kiasuism" and rejected. after that we went to toa payoh interchange as we waited for tuckyong and weixiong, chatted quite long as they took quite long to reach. had dinner at koufu, and we discussed about the escape theme park (finally tuckyong agreed on going), which we are finally going tomorrow! though went there many times already, kind of excited to go take the fun rides, HOPE WONT RAIN TOMORROW. oh then we disturbed each other a lot, quite funny. after dinner went crc to play one match of 5.84c dota, other versions of hero siege, and then counterstrike. there was one part when i wanted to throw a bomb, then i moved too close to the wall and threw. it then bounced off the wall, towards me and my two other teammates. it was pretty funny, and flora complained who did that, i admitted of course. and then, the day before darling and me went to watch Dorm, it was nice. wasnt frightening, but darling scared (teehee). the storyline is good, and rather touching at the end.

you are the first and last person on my mind everyday

yay today woke up and saw kaisheng's sms, he said he was going to library to revise with wayxiong. the time he reached there was the time i woke up, so i didnt want to rush there. i had quite enough already, been sleeping less and studying hard. it was truly a burden, there is nothing much i can do about it but to just do my best and hope can pass. went to school with a low battery handphone, james called (handphone then dead) then smsed me asking how did i study all those. reached school already, felt kind of like a fool looking for my seat. i walked around and around, saw familiar faces but still couldnt find my seat number 17. then finally saw james (hes always behind behind me) and junli point point my seat, which was beside him. its also such a burden being short sighted, im still considering whether to buy contact lens or not. its not that i dont want to wear spectacles, im lazy and i always forget, and my nose is always oily so kind of irritating for the spectacles to keep sliding down my nose. and then if i want to buy contact lens, i dont know how much im willing to pay, and i dont know want to buy monthly or daily. anyway i sat down, not long later the lecturer dont know murmured what! but i saw people started writing, i think he said starto already. while doing, it was like my angel said "correct" my devil said "wrong" those kind of feeling. its like freaking unsure, but thats ALL i KNOW. so in conclusion, know means know, dont know means dont know, just do whatever i can. while doing the paper, junli was like so noisy! he kept saying out words, and sometimes quite loud (*sweatdrops). james left quite early, then he "bye" so loud, kind of shocked me. i left after one and a half hour, with a heavy heart. i tried my best to study so much, tried to memorise so much, tried to practise so much, i just hope can just freaking pass, and then let it PASS AWAY, GO AWAY. the paper was rather tricky at parts, the rest were pretty alright. so yesterday isaac helped me on some of the questions i was stucked at, we went kfc to study. he and the guys were supposed to go fishing or something, but after that didnt manage to go. some of the questions solved, yet some unsolved because his didnt study totally same as mine. then one by one zhenleong, kevin, boonliang, weiliang also came to kfc, not really sure how come. after that covered most of the questions already, we went to eat free pizza hut, serious! the bill very inexpensive, zero zer0 all the way. starting we were quite unsure about the coupons, so i asked can only eat those on the coupons only, the manager said can, you know! so then we ordered 5 pan pizzas and 4 snack combos, all for free. and when we were about to order soft drinks (cannot be too cheapskate), some lady served us 6 glasses of plain water. so we ate this inexpensive meal, and the feeling of just walking out of pizza hut, hahah satki? yum i like the bread stick, i wish i can have somemore. so the guys were going to have Lord of the Rings movie mania at zhenleong's place, i wasnt interested to watch but i agreed on playing video games at his place. boonliang and zhenleong then went to get the cds while weiliang, isaac and kevin went to play billard, i also followed to see them play billard. they played billard kept scolding vulgarities all that, while i revised somemore. at final round kevin said "loser punch, pay all" when he was winning. but after that he lost, and he not enough, weiliang (winner) then said last two loser punch which pulled isaac down the water. he was quite frustrated, because first two rounds he won. pretty funny to see them "fight" and "argue" among each other, really kind of childish. then went zhenleong house played video games, mainly fighting games, then nba, winning eleven, all i not very sure especially on their control configurations. play already really very funny for a noob like me, but kept get bullied. while playing winning eleven, i got so excited that i yelled, and i dont really know what im doing, so it was pretty funny. after they watched some korean show on television, awhile later i left with kevin and isaac. and i now can remember how to go home from kevin's house already. oh isaac shares an opposite movie favourite from me, i love and can even watch alone ghost or horror movies but i cannot take the pain in gore movies. but most guys can watch gore movies i think, sick? =x anyway P!NK's new mtv, awesome to watch. woohoo, i will never be a stupid girl. no way. by the way, i miss my darling..i really do.

if i stay, will you listen to my heart

17th (friday) - went to meet darling, konghong, weixiong and isaac then we headed down to changiVillage by bus. the journey not very long, and we were quite uncertain where ahba's chalet exactly was because of his lack of information. anyway the place was quite ideal, between changiVillage and changiHotel and OCH. no need to fear lack of food or whatever, can just walk out a few steps and many shops are around. ahba quite poor thing, not many turned up for his chalet, mainly put aeroplane and so on. moreover his 3d2n chalet claimed to have another night free, so become 4d3n chalet. reached the unit, its like normal pasirRis NTUC chalet, but bigger. its like one living room in the middle, two bedrooms (one opened, one with broken sliding door) and one toilet. there were also three other guys there, then shortly we went for barbeque. there were sausages, meatsticks, chicken wings, sotong balls, satay, nuggets, soft drinks. and a lot of them were barbequed with honey. its pretty tasty, but a bit weird with the malt taste. there was an 20cents arcade there too, played some games then went back room talk rot. we played card games, blind folded in the dark catching (bi bi), dare card game, talked more rot, drank tiger beer whatsoever. the dare game i got the master card once, and i dared to kiss lips the guys dont want. then in the end kissed cheeks, but it was still funny to watch. i got dared once which was licked on the nose, wasnt that bad on the tip. quite fun, then while playing the catching, we had an accident. too many people crowded on one bed, it was quite squeaky at the wooden base when i stepped on it. i managed to get out of the bed, away from the catcher, but suddenly shortly got CRASH sound. the bed broke! and weixiong had a cut on his elbow. it was too late to report as all the offices had closed, and we continued our game with that bedroom out of bound. i got caught a few times, once i was mistaken for isaac because of my "silky hair" and another time i covered myself up i was mistaken to be konghong. then i got to be catcher two times, lucky i guess right. we also went out for a walk at changiVillage to look at the she-males or transexuals. first time see, but i didnt wear my spectacles, cant really see properly. some looked quite pretty, some have skinny legs, scented bod, nice figure, some have not so good looking face. also had a bad tiff with darling, xin tong. after that we are good again, i love my darling, sorry darling. just that, my parents have temper which is unstoppable and scary. then i dont want to have temper, ive assumed i dont have temper. everybody knows im not short tempered, i hardly show. thats why i get very upset when something really caused me to show my temper. anyway slept for 2hours only, woke up found some left already, and the bed also replaced. couldnt really sleep already, watched television, disturb darling in his sleep and talked to the rest. after that went to eat then went home by bus with darling, weixiong and konghong as the sun setted. found nobody at home, except me, still wide awake sitting in front of the computer typing this. then there were some upsets over the people who said "see how" for the chalet, then went to OCH which was nearby only, yet didnt go chalet. initially didnt find anything wrong, then think about it. yes nobody can force anybody, everybody has their own mind, importantly one still have to make their own decisions. i can say money isnt a problem, didnt eat or whatever at the chalet, fear what. take a seat or have a look around will cause ahba to take a knife and say pay up? Singapore is everybody's place, anywhere also can go, now we are bonded to be friends. could have at least went in and have a chat or something (ahba not your friend arh, moreover how long get to even see him), or asked us to tag along. but seemed there were nothing. we made new friends at the chalet, it was awesome. the thirdteen people some may not know each other, but need not talk or what right, could just have a sit and then go ahead. its the heart, and what you think. its not the pity for others or quantity of people around, its the quality that friends have between one another.

16th (thursday) - early afternoon woke up then went to buy lunch for my family before going out. went tuckyong house at 2pm, i dropped at some bus stop. suddenly seemed different, thought lost dropped at wrong stop. in the end i was right, i thought i was late or something. yet i was second, isaac was first. played some playstation2 games, mostly fighting quite fun. oh when i called darling at 1.17pm, he said he going off soon, wont be late all that (craps, hahah =x). he was third, then konghong, then weixiong, and lastly gwyneth. after that we start our movie mania, actually three vcds. first was Wet Dreams, then Wet Dreams 2 then 40 Year Old Virgin. the first two korean movies were nice, quite funny too. Wet Dreams is mainly about boys curious about girls while Wet Dreams 2 is girls curious about guys. after the two vcds, we had dinner at his place, his mother cooked for us i think. it was really nice, and the noodles was spicy, but still delicious. but spicy (i cant really take spicy). and after dinner watched the last vcd, which i watched already. guess it wasnt that nice to watch especially the ending part, they kept asking me when it was going to end. so we watched all those type of eh-hem shows that day, it was fun though. then we went out and bought drinks and some bomb bags. played with the bomb bags and placed our feets and hands on the bomb bags, it was funny.

15th (wednesday) - went for remedial in school, failed my edeckt what. so got remedial for us to prepare for our supplimentary paper, it wasnt bad. the female lecturer though was dull, she taught very clearly as if we were all noobs, asking any specific questions (the lecture hall was very quiet thats why dull) and then explaining the questions herself in details. she is better than our shouting one dot on his nose lecturer. james was sitting beside me, he kept telling me he still couldnt understand. haiss and kaisheng, nigel and junli behind us kept talking away, saying their "personal private" stuffs. kind of worried for them, but above all very worried for myself. im really very question marks all over at that subject, thats why im afraid. i dont know already, no interest for it already, if repeat module it will be dull to the pits, later i skip more lectures. so really hope i can at least absorb every single shyt and then pour everything out on the supplimentary paper and just bloody pass it with no more worries. so after the remedial, didnt go watch Date Movie with the guys because kind of late already and hardly hang out with poly friends, went to take a look at the working place. it wasnt bad, like some factory, i may be working next month keeping my papa in the dark (my mama told me to do so). after waiting for them to dismiss, james and manhin treated me at some chinese restaurant at centurySquare, though they said they have dinner at home, thanks. we ordered different la mian and it was really nice, and we exchanged and shared the ingredients. their set meal isnt bad either (some favourite dishes and the price still acceptable), next time can go there eat again. after that went shopping a bit, i kept asking them need not follow me they insisted and then followed james to find his suitable slippers. im the sort will feel uneasy to make others wait all those while doing shopping, thats why i rather shop alone. then went home by bus, the 1hour 10mins bus 28 journey.

14th (tuesday) - woke up early morning and gave morning calls. went jurong swimming complex to swim with darling, isaac and tuckyong. darling said he didnt get to sleep, tuckyong slept a few hours as he played basketball the day before. went there, wasnt very crowded but still fine. then we rent one locker, and had to re-rent another time as isaac forgot to put away his spectacles, quite funny. and we placed our slippers at a corner, luckily nobody took them away (Singapore is a safe country). after that went to rent our floats and we headed lazy pool first, it was rather relaxing. we also played the slides, went to the wave pool and slacked at the shakuzi. had quite a lot of fun, all for 80cents. and of course, get kind of prickly and itchy red skin. i kind of like to peel.

remember me always for who i am to you

there was once a mother duck, she laid 7 eggs. she was very happy and cared for her eggs well. one day her eggs started to hatch, one by one they hatched. the first six ducklings had beautiful yellow feathers and chirped sweetly. until the last egg hatched, it was grey and different from the rest. and from that day on, no other ducklings like to play with that ugly duckling.
once there was a boy, he lived in a quarrelsome family. his family always quarrel because of him as he was a slight retard, and whenever he gets upset he will start throwing things randomly. one day his family brought him to japan, where he got lost. there was a gangster who owed a big loan from a secret society, he was desperate to pay up his debts. the gangster saw the boy on the streetway looking lost and wanted to rob him. the boy claimed to the gangster:"i know you. do you remember me? we used to be classmates during grade 3." the gangster was puzzled as he couldnt recall a thing. "i am waiting here for my brother, he said he was going away for a while. but i have waited for him for 5 hours and dont see him anywhere." the gangster was surprised of his patience, yet he still managed to hand the boy's wallet from his open bag and walked away. the gangster was frustrated when he found out the boy's cute wallet was completely empty. though the boy was retarded, he was not stupid, he kept his money at somewhere private on his body. as the gangster threw away the wallet, the members of the secret society appeared and surrounded him. he was then brought to the head of loan shark at the roof top where he got beaten up and drunk badly. "you better pay up or else you will have only two choices." the loan shark held the gangster over the roof top edge. "you either fall from here, or work for me. as a duck." the loan shark and his men left. the boy was still standing on the same spot, urgent to pee. then he saw someone peeing onto a pile of boxes by the roadside, he decided to do so too. while peeing, the gangster was thrown from a car onto the boxes, where he got peed on the face. "get me up.", the gangster shouted with heavy eyes. the boy tried to get him up, but the gangster could not stand still. the gangster kept complaining "i told you to get me up, i want to go home". after that the gangster cried on the floor, the boy then hugged him and sang a lullaby. on the next day, the gangster woke up in his apartment. the boy was scribbling away in a notebook at the table. upon seeing the gangster had woke up, he started telling him how much he owed him for the cab fee and food. the gangster was irritated, he then went to find his good friend for advise, the boy followed as he nagged about the loan. at the bar, they saw a girl crying as her hand held a mug of beer. the boy looked curiously, and the gangster patted the girl and said "told you not to play with loan sharks". the gangster told the boy to sit by the bar as he looked for his friend. he went in and told his friend about the loan sharks and how he was supposed to find a million to return. his friend told him the best way was to be a duck, she then said looks does not matter as long he was willing to do anything the female want. the gangster was very confused, then they walked out of the room and saw the crying girl not crying anymore. yet smiling and cuddling on the boy's shoulder. the gangster was clueless, then his friend said "you didnt tell me you have such a handsome friend" and started touching his face around. she then whispered to the gangster "he has potential", leaving the gangster in much thinking. after the two guys reached home, the gangster asked the boy how he did it. the boy then explained he had a special gift, whoever he hugged will turn happy. "dont you remember? that day when you were drunk, you were crying so loudly. then you smiled so silly when i sang you a lullaby and hugged you". the gangster could not recall, the boy continued "i used to hug a lot of people and make them happy. but until they know im a retard, they never want to hug me. who wants to hug a retard, nobody wants to play with me also". the gangster then asked "do you want to make a lot of jie jies happy? you have a chance" the boy was rather delighted and agreed. the gangster taught him what to do and what to say in japanese, other than hugging which he could just naturally do. the gangster then brought the boy on a makeover, styled his hair and bought suits for him. the boy was a hit, and earned quite a lot. and the gangster kept pushing him to go on and on, the boy was very tired. to be continued..

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rubbish

looking up at the same sky, we aint that far apart

recently quite busy, and cant sleep well, keep waking up in the morning, dont eat well either. anyway yesterday went ice skating with flora, ferline, gwyneth, ronald, isaac and yaongai, it was fun. we were supposed to gather people in multiples of 4 as there is a package for a group of 4. in the end some unable to turn up, but its alright. met at ang mo kio, then went there by mrt, waited for everybody to arrive and also pestered leslie to go along. just after boarded the train, my results came! sigh, i F my edeckt, and RESULTS:SP. damm i have a supplimentary paper to go for, why is this happening to me? i am seriously disappointed and heart ached, my gpa from 3.75 dropped to 3.04. and if i manage to pass my edeckt sp, its worth 1 point, how high can it pull up, sigh i have to study hard. then james, winson, kai called to ask, all of them failed at least one, heard taufiq is good all passed. seeing jessica failed one and had different classes for every subject, i dont want that. hope we still can be in a class, and NO WAY am i going to repeat edeckt module, it sucks to study something i dont know and still dont know. anyway we reached jurong around 3+pm and the lady in the counter said 4pm wash ice. because we had 7 people in total, so we bought a package of 4 and 3 student tickets, whereas the package allows unlimited time while the student ticket is only for 2hours. so it wouldnt be worth it, we thought of going later until the lady said give us unlimited time for all. how nice! so the 7 of us not so pro in skating but still not bad, except isaac, he still thinks its very tough. we skated, rested and played. like there was this girl who will only cling onto the railings, heard they said she said "excuse me" very loud or something, then they wanted to disturb the girl back by saying "excuse me" and clinging onto the railings and blocking her way. kind of funny, starting i didnt know how the girl looked like and i couldnt see her anywhere. so i said something about her, and she was right behind me, and then i turned back she skated past me. then we also played some kallang wave thingy, with our hands on the railings. and we also played ice and water, isaac couldnt play, he still couldnt get the hang of ice skating. the ice and water quite fun, just a bit afraid might skate too fast then fall. i kind of fell once, i choo choo train gwyneth then she skated quite fast until i want to let go or something i fell onto my knees and slided a bit (quite awesome). quite funny and wasnt very pain, but found there is a blue black at the side of my right knee when i reached home. so anyway everybody was hungry by then, i was very hungry! i didnt eat or drink anything since i woke up, until 7pm then finally can go eat. flora left to visit her relative, while we went 2nd level to eat at some food court. after that we walked through the night market, then we went to see the amusement park. there was only one thrilling ride, and gwyneth and i took it. it is like some big metal ring disk thingy, and we had to go in then stand and lean against the cushion on the wall. starting we were thinking is it safe or not, as there are no safety belts or anything, just some bar beside for us to hold onto and a hanging rope thingy in front of us.

there were quite a few people with us, even small kids. and so the ride started, and then we know it was completely safe. because as the ring keep turning, there will be a lot a lot a lot of air pressure against our bodies onto the wall. there was something pointy at my elbow, but i couldnt really help it, the force was really strong. it was amazing we still can chat and laugh throughout the ride though the air pressure caused us to be kind of tired on the stomach. our necks also a bit tired, i cracked mine after the ride stopped. we tried waving during the ride, ferline said they saw and they waved many times too, but the ride too fast all we saw was blur. so overall it was fun, and thanks gwyneth for treating me 1$. and after that we took mrt and i alighted with ronald, isaac and gwyneth at amg mo kio to take bus. went home and watched Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire and The Vietnamese Bride vcds. the Vietnamese Bride show was very funny, a lot of hokkien but got subtitle. damm i like Harry Potter movies, remember i was young, i used to wish i were a witch upon my birthday cakes, no joke i want to have magic. and while watching it, i suddenly felt myself liking one of the characters in the movie, seriously, i find shes very pretty (oops im not lesbian).

then on the day before yesterday, isaac called me think mainly to have dinner. he was with weixiong playing pool and had a haircut, then i reached already, later darling reached then ronald. after pool, went to have dinner then tuckyong came along. had a discussion, in the end we really went crc to play dota. darling, weixiong, isaac and me still are member of crc, ours havent expire yet. played quite long, randomed matches, computer hang for two times, and i lost that night. nothing much, after that went home. then on wednesday night went to have dinner with darling, can say initially its he suggested. so i told my papa i going out eat while he went out to buy food back. was kind of afraid he might scold me so late still at home never eat, so i went down first. then darling said his mother got cook for him, so i had to wait. dont know why suddenly felt really very sad, i cried at the void deck. i then suddenly thought of good friends. its like, last time what sad matters i will approach my good friend, its nice feeling that your good friend understands you. then will talk to you, but what matters is the good friend's presence. its been some time i ever called a good friend, so i tried calling thomas but i was embarrassed that he was having dinner with his wife. couldnt really say much, just how i felt at that moment and what happened. then after that called james, i dont know why i just did and asked him if he had some time to spare. he said i was silly, as always. but quite true, i admit i was silly. then he said about the sakura stuff, he said shouldnt have called the rest, should have just the four of us (him, manhin, darling and me) maybe will get to talk as in a small group. well quite true, then he said he thought my darling will be as tall as winson or as built as shawn, kind of funny. i said no lah no lah, thats my darling. i love my darling just as the way he is (no i didnt tell him that). after that darling found out, approaching others for things which are bothering me, but not him. hope wont happen again, but its really kind of embarrassing to say something like you made me sad until i teared. well i wont blame anyone, do felt myself silly, kind of useless why so weak. but true enough: 人不说心，谁知. hope we can understand each other better.

its my heart you take, its my heart you break

couldnt really sleep well, so decided not to sleep for now. yesterday night went home by bus 235 after the last mrt, boarded the bus then got a guy kept look at me while i sat at the back. he alighted same bus stop as me, but ran after alighted. then i just went online, a guy i met through wholivesnearyou came to talk to me, asked if i took 235 yesterday. i said ya, but probably my short sightedness cause me not to recognise him. but i seriously didnt see his big black eyes, how come i couldnt recognise him when i did look at him, its weird. then he said he guess i have bf already, and he told me he has a gf too, thats good. last time he liked me and was quite "obsessive", kept bothering me to call him and flooded me with "what you doing" when we just met for one time. it was a bad ending, i told him he was irritating. he treated it as i dont want him to bother me anymore, so he "left" and we didnt really talk since then and i deleted his photo in my handphone. anyway yesterday went orchard to watch Final Destination 3 with darling, tuckyong, johnson, gwyneth, weixiong, boonliang, ferline and isaac. we waited quite some time at toa payoh for everybody to reach, and we discussed about Escape theme park or Wild Wild Wet. yes i want to go Escape theme park! but then, ferline going taiwan next week, gwyneth maybe going bangkok later this week with her family, and some of the guys going bangkok too. felt kind of sad, i didnt get to go anywhere, i want to go thailand (i just like the culture there) or california (disneyland! nickelodeon!) or hongkong (shop eat shop eat sleep). so then we headed to orchard and had dinner at kfc eating 2 sets of family feast (4 person per tables before johnson came), think it was the second or third time eating chicken pieces with my bare hands outside. isaac was at same table as ferline, gwyneth and me, and we were saying what we want and dont want for the chicken and drinks, which became quite funny and isaac found us fussy. after dinner went up to the arcade and played the pin shot thingy and table soccer. the pin shot thingy was fun, first match i teamed with tuckyong (we opened number) versus gwyneth and ferline, and we scored. after that had another game which i teamed with isaac versus gwyneth and tuckyong, we won. pretty funny and it was fun, and my arm kind of aches already. then had two games of table soccer, girls versus boys, and the end of the stick i was controlling kept poking the person the other side, i was distracted okay. starting we goaling spree but we lost, and had a draw (no penalty). after gaming we headed to the movies already, sigh i felt kind of bluffed after watching that movie, its not a horror or scary movie okay! its a sick to the core yuckified grusome movie okay! i hate to watch this kind of movie, i couldnt take the pain. i know its fake, but its so painful can! while watching it, until i found out it was a grusome movie, NOT a scary movie, i really felt like giving up. my eyes were wet, but i just had to finish it, im not sore loser (hahah). should had trust my instinct on not watching, i really believed it was a scary movie. enough of the complaining, that movie was pretty interesting too, like some psycho death spree and their deaths aint very real, though disgusting. no way our head or body would be that easily squashed until almost nothing, or is it? but still, i would still prefer watching cute little cartoons being tortured like Happy Tree Friends or some grusome bloody figurines. =]




there are so many movies i want to watch, like Scary Movie 4 and Date Movie (also from producers of Scary Movie series), Nanny McPhee, Shaggy Dog, Underworld:Evolution (yeah vampires and lycans), dotdotdot. hope the vcds can come out faster at LaserFlair so i can rent and stay at home movie mania. about Scary Movie, i still remember it was my friend who introduced me to watch and she lent me her pirated vcds. the movies are not scary, they usually twisted a few popular movies together (and some scary movies) and made it funny. there are nakey people, stupid bimbos, weird characters and so on, but overall its funny! so later should be going to meet amylia with tuckyong (but he got errands to run, so not very confirm), so long didnt see her already. is she still ever naggy, is she still ever confident and pretty? still remember last time secondary one, she approached me and my friends (i think they are shuhua and aziela)and introduced us to visit the Pop-In-Cabin (silly name, then it was changed to d'Den). then we joined their activities and became cabin leaders, made many friends including tuckyong, benson, minqian, zhansheng and the rest of the seniors, so many! after that amylia and i also became good friends, and i went church services and two5one (no, it isnt secret society, just a youth hub). at there, made more friends like kokyen, helen, gary, cheryl, jeremy but aint that close, never really contact anymore. but it was loads of fun at their camps and other activities. hope that payar lebar place for two5one faster build finish, then go there have fun together again.



looking back, i look kind of weird. like some sort of "ah lian" or just "weirdo". maybe its my hair, or the way i wear. oh well, its nice having memories you could think back and just laugh, rather than to cry (unless in joy?).

be yourself, have a mind of your own

嘿我刚刚回家不久，妹妹发烧完了，现在她不知不觉有rashes在全身。她真的有点可怜，一直sick后来也会一直哭个不停，haiss又不知怎么帮她。就在friday，我的darling和我一起和我的poly朋友一起吃晚餐。我起初问他要不要去因为我的朋友也问，他就说anything我就以为真的anything。但他一定很uneasy，而且没有人跟他说话除了我。我也问了我的朋友为什么没有跟他说话，他说他的脸很fierce哈哈。我就说不是凶，而是因为人不自在所以face会有点臭。哎真搞不懂，后来我说要请darling出去，他就跟我说pride。我只要他陪我出去，我可以请他我不管谁出不出钱，有wrong吗。开心就好吗，好过没东西做或每次做一样的事情，又不是每次。如果我一直靠他，他也会broke到惨惨啊。很多东西真的不明白，我觉得我想和他聊天都难。哈哈他不是玩game就是玩game，使我想起以前我的ex男朋友每次骂我玩game没有reply他或reply很慢，真的有点像karma。但是我觉得没有什么错啦，只是有时想聊聊天等的。又怎么样我的朋友每次和我聊天说心事，我爱的都不是他们，一定会sad的吗如果觉得darling不在乎我。觉得做朋友的时候什么都好，做男女朋友之后不是通通都好了，也许比较熟了后来拿来granted。连我也觉得要开口提出东西也有点held后，好像不熟的样子，还是不想我们有什么错误，还是我expect他知道（但人不说心，谁知道）。anyway昨天我surf网络，看到了一个蛮不错的blog。它蛮好笑的，有一些boliao的东西，而且有鬼的flash游戏（episode一和episode二）。很有趣而且蛮恐怖的，起初玩真的要吓坏我了，后来就比较稳定不怎么怕了。episode二就玩到有点烦感，但我还是complete了那两个游戏。

rubbish

我本来也有去做工的，好赚但我的papa说那个地方太远了。起初我想去做工赚钱然后用在我和darling的身上，去玩啦开心就好，也可以存一些。现在真的有点糟糕，我也不想broke自己，一定要存for以后。后来我现在真的很free了，哈哈。就在前几天，vincent和我说话。他说他中到SP的civilstructurialengineering吧，说是做construction工人的。我觉得有点奇怪就和benson说，他说他胡说，哈哈。后来他说要appeal，就问了我的course是怎么样的，好吗。就跟他说咯，不知道他会不会进我的course，但真的有点不好感。今天去了darling家，看我的最爱moulinrouge。看了那么多次还是觉得好好看啊，好笑又感人又期待。后来我们吃晚餐蛮晚的，那只鸡cutlet真的很好吃，很crispy只是不喜欢它的pepper。回家时看到一只小猫，好可爱啊，喵喵叫小小声的。但是我有bitephobia，我很怕痛又很怕动物咬我的。我的日子最近好像过得比较慢，上学比较快过。天啊，三月11th就懂exam成绩了，有点紧张我很不希望有sup考卷。生命就是那么短又unexpected，有得幸福就幸福，有得怎么生活下去就继续的生活下去。因为life就是那么unexpected，没有事事都你想要的，想得到的也不一定得到。如果我可以，我希望能给大家happiness，那就行了。

pictures can fade away, but memories always stay

a few days back there was this man who added me in Hi5. well its really been some long time since i logged in to Hi5, and he told me ive left my email address. so he added me in msn, and he is 32 years old shown in his profile. because my msn is setted to Appear Offline, so i signed in and i took a look at his MySpace first since he has one. i was kind of surprised, he has two daughters! and he is seperated! and he added me in msn! it is kind of weird, and he is from Canada. well his blog entries are really sad, like how he missed his daughters when they had to go to their mother's for the weekends, with another guy. like how he mentioned he couldnt really take the loneliness as they had been together for NINETEEN years, and still loves her. what the hell happened, and what was the woman thinking? like how someone got interested in him, but all he did was drinking which then caused the girl to run away, missing his chance. i was afraid to ask more, what if i said the wrong things and caused him to recall some bad stuffs and made him sad. i will be guilty, so i decided not to ask anything about his past relationship. so this man has to take care of his two daughters (4 and 6 years old) by himself, fancy that. he works as a painter for houses, but shifting for an office job as his friend recommended due to his hurt of the back a few years back. actually there is nothing much to talk to this man, i dont really know what to say except between countries and his living. well there have been a lot of unknown foreign men who added me in msn, i usually view their profile, asked them how they got my email, then block and delete bye. sometimes they really frighten me, they like to ask about personal stuffs. anyway i kind of feel for this man, he is so poor thing lah. cant really do much though, he is too far and i am too young. if i could, i will bring his daughters out and play with them and take care of them. my sis and i quite click already, i say "kiss me" she will MUACK my cheek or lips loudly, so cute. then sometimes she talks to me (in indian or korean or just baby talk) which i dont understand, but she really can talk a lot. sometimes i just want to do my stuffs, she could not stop bothering me, i had no choice i have to stop and put aside everything and take care of her. he said his daughters are she-devils but still angels to him, i could also tell he couldnt live without them. and he also takes care of them well. like he said, family.. whatever they do or behave, you will always love them as they are.

so yesterday went to watch Big Momma's House 2 with darling, wx, ty, bl which wasnt bad, a hilarious show. also talks about family, mainly the parents werent around to take care of their children. then the children start to learn funny stuffs, and the parents dont really know much about their children, which is a pity. the closest yet so clueless. then after movies went to play arcade, my Rock Fever 3 woohoo. miss those times always go arcade with my bros, then challenge each other arcade games and always practicing, so fun. now get to see them also seldom, sigh. hope to have a gathering or something soon. miss you.